FuckMyLife

2011-02-03T17:54:00.002+08:00

Damn i miss my hair T.T Going ns soon but idk when or which group will i be posted to ): its very heart wrecking for me to wait and wait.. Going through numerous medical check ups because i have a friggen medical issue.. i'm anemic.. FUCKMYLIFE.. I just wanna get this fucking ns thing over and done with..

die

2010-09-02T02:53:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggy,

my life is a mess .

everything is a mess .

i can't talk it anymore .

i don't know what to do .

i'm always good at fixing other people's lives but i can't seem to fix my own .

take care .. and goodbye ..

loves~

2010-05-02T01:10:00.006+08:00

Do we look alike ? Or at least kinda alike ? Hahaha ! Damn man .. I miss my hair .. Like reallyreally miss my hair .. Sigh .. If i had one wish right now,i wish i had my old hair back .. Damn it man ..! Oh well .. Well today had alot of fun .. Spent time with baby and the usual peeps at somerset skatepark .. Oh btw guys,baby bought her skateboard already ..! Like .. WOOTWOOT ! Now can finale skate with her .. Wow .. How time pass by soo fast .. I can't believe i've been with her for 8 months already,and this month will be our 9 months .. Wow .. Damn ..! I think i've found the one who i'd love to spend the rest of my life with .. Hmm .. Well .. See how things flow for the rest of the days .. But hey,me and baby know that we can last loooooong~ Like really loooooong~

Hmm .. Well .. Guess that's all .. Bye guys ! And to all you people who love Oli Sykes,back off ! He's mine ! :D

sk8

2010-04-26T04:11:00.002+08:00

What tricks i've landed soo far ..

boneless
boneless 180
boneless 360
ollie
fakie ollie
nollie
shove it
fakie shove it
shove it rewind
bs big spin
fakie 360 shove it
impossible
fakie impossible
pop shove it
fakie pop shove it
360 pop shove it
kick flip sex change
bs fakie big spin
360 flip (landed by accident)
primo stand
rail flip
boneless roulete

Hmm.. Good for 5 months of skating after stopping for such a loooong time .. Hmm .. Oh well ..
I still have a long way to go ..

hmm

2010-04-05T00:23:00.002+08:00

Baby's gone.. She's gone.. For 3 days.. Sigh.. I know it's only 3 days and i seem to be making a big deal out of it.. But 3 days. Seems like a looooooong time to me..

Imagine 3 days without air to breathe. 3 days lost in a desert. 3 days feeling lonely and sad. Hmm.. Get the picture now?

Because baby.. You're like the air I need to breathe

You're my guide that give me directions in life

You're the one I can count on to cheer me up and i soo adore your voice and I'm missing you like crazy now..

And the worst part is.. Its only the first day.. Sigh..

Lets see how i manage without my dearest.. For 3 days. Hmm..

I miss your texts..

I miss your voice..

I miss your warm embrace..

I miss the way we kiss..

I miss holding your hand..

I miss you soo much..

woah

2010-04-02T02:07:00.002+08:00

Can't sleep. Cannot sleep. Haven been sleeping well for 2 days straight. Feeling weak. Argue here,augue there,argue everywhere. Wanna die. Wanna cry. Feeling sick. Oh soo weak. Not enought rest. My life's a mess.

Sigh.. I don't know what to do uh.. Feeling soo alone.. Soo lost.. Soo misserable..

Idk what I did.. What I said.. I'm sick.. That's how sick people sound like.. Don't have to be soo harsh on me.. It's just not fair.. It's like I wasn't even there.. It's like.. Idk.. I can't think straight.. The pills must be kicking in.. Hmm.. Well.. Idk if this means anything.. But hey sweetheart.. I'm sorry.. For being sick.. For sounding sarcastic.. For everything.. For everything that's worth in or marriage I mean.. Relationship.. I'm sorry..

xoxo

Hakim DropDead Suicide

gosh

2010-03-30T01:04:00.002+08:00

Damn man.. I envy this emo couple.. Makes me miss my hair and my snakebites more T.T

But hey.. Dad's gonna pass me cash to buy the hair growth accelarator. So yeah.. Just give me 1 month. I'm sure I can get my old hair back. Ok la.. Maybe not my old hair.. But maybe something close to it.. Hahaha! Hmm.. Well.. Can't wait to start using it^^ Can't wait to get my old hair back. Once its back. Say hello to Oli Sykes' look-alike guys^^

weeee

2010-03-25T00:50:00.009+08:00

thanks for the fun day guys c: you guys sure did cheer me up^^

123

2010-03-24T01:00:00.008+08:00

I tried my best to look like him.. Do i look like the dude?

GAAAAH

2010-03-21T23:26:00.003+08:00

If you could read my mind you'd be in tears.
Trust me.. You will..

There's soo much misery,soo much pain,soo much negative shit going about in my head.
Sometimes I feel like killing myself.. End the pain once and for all.. Fuck this shit they call life..
Fuck it and damn it to the grave.. My grave.. I can't take this any longer!!
SOMEBODY KILL ME NOW!!!

My life is a mess..
It sucks to be me..
I feel as if i have no purpose in life anymore..
I feel as a knife has peirced my heart and its slowly twisting and slowly gourging out my heart..
I feel like digging my own grave and lie there and slowly become one with the earth..
Slowly decay and rot till i become as putrid as another dead corpes..

FUCK IT! FUCK THIS SHIT!

^^

2010-03-18T23:53:00.005+08:00

Hey guys! Its Hakim HeartAttack! And this is my darling wifey.. Fafa EmoGerl!^^

Feels good to be in love.. Trust me.. It does.. Hahaha^^ I've got nothing to blog so why not blog about me pouring my heart out to Fafa (:

Here we goooooo~

This world is soo un-perfect. But this love is soo worth it.

Its worth everytime I see your smile

Its worth everytime I hear you laughing

Its worth everytime I see you being happy

Its worth everytime I hold you in my arms

Its worth everytime I kiss your lips

Its worth everytime I write you a poem and you loved one of them

Its worth everytime I write you a song and sing it to you

Its worth every tears I've shed

Its worth every blood I've spilled

Its worth every second I wait just to meet you

Its worth every rose I gave you

Its worth everytime we say 'I love you' to eachother

Distance doesn't matter,because as long as I love you and you love me,it never will be a matter.

Time doesn't matter. I could wait for you for weeks,maybe even months till I finally getto meet you. As long as I get to spend time with you,I'm happy,because you're there with me,and nothing else matters.

It breaks my heart to see you depressed and sad.. All I ever wanted is for you to be happy. I will not stop till you achieve happiness. You can tell me to stop but there's no point telling me to do so because I'm persistent and I am determined to make you happy. I'll see it through..

No matter what,I will see it through..

Well.. Guess that's about it for today. Till next time. Byeeeee~

love story

2010-03-15T14:58:00.005+08:00

Its raining again.. Sigh.. I love the rain.. Makes me calm myself down,makes me think straight for once,makes me smile for awhile and it gets my 'EMO' vibe going. Hahaha(: Well,its raining its raining my heart is pouring,out to you yeah only you cos baby I love you(:

Gather around children. The story's about to begin. Its about a young man and woman who were soo unconditionally in love. The story goes..

Once upon a time.there was a young man named Hakim. He was tall,lean,had long hair and loved the emo trend, and there was also a young woman named Fafa. She was well,beautifull in every way,kind,sweet,compassionate and loved the emo trend too. They met online on Tagged. It was like love at first sight. Hakim was in Australia at the momment so you guys could imagine how sad Fafa was feeling. So well,Fafa approached Hakim first. Hakim being a shy guy,was flattered and was blusshing like an apple when Fafa complemented him. So the both of them talked online for the next 2 weeks and boy oh boy.. Hakim didn't saw this one coming. . Fafa confessed to Hakim that she couldn't stop thinking about him and wished he was in Singapore. Hakim was shocked and blushing and suddenly,out of the blue,Fafa tells Hakim that she loved him. Her confession was long and every word of it moved Hakim's heart. Hakim shed tears of joy and without any hessitation,he told Fafa that he loved her too. That was a very happy momment for them. So they continued chatting for the next 2 weeks. Hakim eventually came back to Singapore. He called Fafa the momment he landed. He was nervous because it was the first time that he's gonna hear her voice. Eventually she picked up the phone and he was speechless. Her voice was soo.. Wow.. He was ecstatic! Absoloutely ecstatic! The lovebirds talked for the next few days till they finally went on their 1st date. Hakim waited for Fafa at Dover,awaiting his beloved to arrive. When he finally saw her,his heart was racing,he was out of breathe and he was just smiling. She was feeling the same way too. Both of them were shy at first but after awhile they got comfortable with eachother(: They were acting as if they were attached but actually,they were'nt.. They kept contacting eachother for another few weeks and Hakim thought to himself,'you know what.. I'm gonna ask her to be my girlfriend' He was nervous of the idea,afraid she'd say no and leave him hanging there with a broken heart. Well,he finally met her and well,he bought a rose for her and eventually asked her to be his girlfriend. he said these exact words.

Hakim:You knw i love you right?
Fafa:Yeah..
Hakim:You know i wanna be with you right?
Fafa:Yeah.. Baby you're scaring me..
Hakim:*shows rose* Will you be my girlfriend?
Fafa:OMG *hugs*
Hakim:Is that a yes?
Fafa:What do you think?
Hakim:Its a yes than c:

They were both happy. He never imagined it could go soo well..
The both of them were happy and yeah. They lived happily ever after.

Well children,I hope my love story didn't bore you.
Moral of the story is,love at first sight does exist. Hey,it happened to me(:

gaga

2010-03-13T03:27:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was fun. Went to skate at summerset with my friends. Had a blast. GOS with loads of people. Mostly,I won. Haha! I was pumped about that. Went to doughby gaut because the park was closed because of some dumbass dance thingy. Sucks man. Skaters getting kicked out of a skate park. Wow.. My life is complete now-.- played stairs at doughby gaut. Landed most of my boneless. And finally landed my boneless 180. It was scary at first but I got used to it. I landed it on my first try^^ But sadly,it all came to an end.. My deck broke at my 3rd run. Damn.. Sadness T.T I need to get a new deck. Went home afterwards. Was bored so I camwhored. Out of all the hundreds of pics I took,I picked only one. Hahaha! Here it is.

Hot right? Modeh mah.. Hahaha! NO seriously.. I am a model..

Had an arguement with Fafa. I hate it when we argue. And this time it was a simple misunderstanding.. It tears my heart when we argue. Let's hope things get better later. Hopefully she'll agree to meet me. I'm planning to pass her something. I havesomething to tell her to and ita best I tell her in person. Hmm.. Well.. We'll see how things go. Let's see if things go according as I had planned..

signing off now. Till next time. Take Care

skate

2010-03-12T01:29:00.002+08:00

questions on Facebook

-who would you like to spend your next saturday with all day?
ans:I'd like to spend it with my girlfriend.. Go to the beach.. Have a romantic candle-light picnic.. Lay down next to her and watch the stars.. But.. sigh.. She's always busy with work.. Well.. Just have to wait for this plan to happen than..

-what is one of your favourite memories you would like to relive?
ans:I wish I could relive the time I went out for the 1st time with Fafa.. The both of us were soo happy and shy at first.. But after awhile,we got comfortable with eachother and well.. Look where we are now(: Ahh... Miss that day soo much

-if you were invisible for 24hours,what would you do?
ans:I'd break into boards and stuff,steal a GIRL deck size 8,steal VOX and MACBETH shoes,steal all the DROPDEAD clothes and accessories,break into a flower shop and steal all the roses and dump it onto my GF's house with a note saying,'baby,these roses are for you. hope they can fit in your room and hope you like them(: -love your beloved hubby,hakim'

Posts on Facebook

-I could have sworn I heard your voice calling out my name.. Saying that you love me soo much and wishing you were here with me,but when I turned around you were nowhere to be found and for no apperent reason,I started crying because I miss you soo much..

-every step i take makes me wish that i could just be there with you. to see your face,your smile,feel your warm embrace and tell you how much i love you

-cheer up love.. Nobody said life was fair.. Nobody said life would'nt be fiiled with ups and downs. So just be strong alright love? You know i'll always be there for you no matter what the situation is. So just hang in there love.. It'll all be over soon..

Sigh.. I've got nothing better to do.. Plus I freakin miss Fafa alot.. Hmmm.. Don't know la when she's free.. Guess all I can do is wait..

DEATH

2010-03-10T00:43:00.003+08:00

I've been busy nowdays.. Skate and other personal stuff.. One of them is song writing and simply writing down poems. Just a bunch of random poems. Mostly reflecting on how i feel in the past.. Here's one of them.

This knife is all i have left
All that's left to share my pain
Pain that i feel deep down
Pain that kills me deep inside
Pain that slowly extinguishes the flames of my dying happiness
Its like a blackhole with a hunger for sorrow and anguish
It feeds on the very essence of my dying happiness
It feeds ravenously on my dying hope
It feeds off the negative energy that resides within me
This feeling i can't lay to rest
This feeling i can't dismiss
This feeling i can't resist
I want to battle this plaque
Be rid of it
Be free from it
Be happy again
It seems like the end is nigh
It feels as if i'm going to die
It feels as though I won't make it out alive
I am a lost soul
Roaming forever on this world
In search for that one thing I crave for
That one thing i desire to be with
That one thing i wish i could have
HAPPINESS

fafa

2010-03-08T04:28:00.004+08:00

That's a pic of me with my old hair when I was in Australia last year..

Well here's an update.. Been really stressed and it really effected my relationship like seriously.. Sigh.. GodDamnMe.. Had a big fight with Fafa.. I almost lost her.. Like seriously.. I was crying and slashing away.. Sigh.. Depression is a murderous thing to have. Like seriously.. It can kill.. I know.. I had a couple of near-death experiences becaus of it.. But everything is ok now.. She said that she lost her love for me.. I was destroyed.. My heart slowly disintegrated.. But I managed to get back her love and now.. I'm just being mindfull of what I say and not let my anger and me being stressed get in the way of my relationship..

Baby I'm really sorry..
I'm sorry that I hurt you
I'm sorry that I made you angry
I'm sorry that I made your love for me dissappear
I'm sorry that I made you cry
I'm sorry if I broke your heart
I'm sorry if I dissappointed you
I'm sorry that I let my anger get in the way
I'm sorry baby..
I'm really sorry..

I'm just glad that everything is ok now.. I've managed to get back her love.. I managed to prove her wrong.. I managed to make her fall in love with me all over again.. We've come soo far baby.. Let's work together and strive for a future together.. You and me.. Together forever just like we planned..

With each passing momment my heart cries out your name.
With each breathe I take,I feel lucky,lucky to be with you still.
With every sunset I long for your warm embrace
With each passing day my love for you grows stronger

I told you I was different.. And I'll love you. Now and forever,just like I promised..

why

2010-03-03T00:27:00.002+08:00

I wake up every freakin' morning and do the same fuckin' routine every single day.. I'm sick of it.. Have my sins been soo dire till you have forsaken me? Have I not changed for the better? Have I not proven to you that I'm good now? Why must you punnish me like this.. Why.. I'm tired of the pain.. The anguish.. The suffering.. I'm sick of it all.. I swear to you guys,something terrible is happening to me.. I don't know why it's happening to me.. But well,it's too late to wonder why.. It has already begun.. My eyes are failing me.. My body is shutting down.. My mind is wondering.. Why me.. Why.. I want it to stop..

help me

2010-02-18T00:23:00.003+08:00

Hey guys.. Its me again.. Well.. To be honest with you guys.. I seriously have no mood to blog.. But why the fuck am I blogging right? Its because I have nothing better to do.. I seriously feel even sad with each passing day..

This heart is full of anguish and pain

I feel as if the end for me is near.. I feel pain when I don't want to.. I think about hurtfull thoughts when all I want to think about is my family,friends and my girlfriend..

This heart will beat no longer

I tried thinking of my future But all I see is pain and darkness.. All I see is me dying in a corner alone...

These thoughts,they burn. These vissions,they kill

I don't know what to do..

kwakwakwa

2010-02-13T02:52:00.003+08:00

Hey guys.. Its just me with another stupid random post.. Sigh.. Where do I start.. Hmmm..

I've been skateboarding alot.. Like really alot.. Been falling down alot too.. But what the heck.. If it hurts,than so be it.. I just sprained my ankle on thursday because I tried to land Fakie pressure flip. I landed on my ankle and it hurt like fuck.. I was laying on the ground just trying to bear the pain.. But what the heck.. Its my fault.. I still went to Summerset to skate the day after anyways.. Sigh.. Been feeling like shit this past few days.. I won't say why.. This feeling really sucks.. I guess that's why I've been skateboarding alot lately.. I guess its one way that I can focus on something else rather than thinking about it again and again and again.. This feeling really sucks.. Hmmm... Well.. Goin to Batam later.. I wanna thank all my friends especially my Skate Crew mates,Muhammad,Fahmi and Alip because you guys really mad my day today.. Thank you guys.. TROPIKANA RULEZ! Valentines Day is coming soon.. Idk what to do.. Sigh.. Guess we'll wait and see.. I'll end here now..

2010-01-26T23:18:00.003+08:00

Same or not our face? Our hair? Hahaha! Damn I'm bored! Nothing to do! Gaaaah! I'm stuck at home rotting.. RotRotRot.. Sigh.. So I asked myself.. Why not I blog.. Hmm.. But I was feeling kinda lazy.. "To blog or not to blog?" Hahaha! That was the question.. So here I am! Eventually blogging.. Hmm.. What should I blog about.. Let me see.. Oh yeah! I'm like soo FUCKIN addicted to Bring Me The Horizon! Like OMG! AHHH! They rock c: DropDead clothes are already selling at "all boards and stuff" outlets in singapore. There's one in FarEast and another in Cineleisure. Wooohooo! Somebody buy me one! Hahaha! Damn.. I'm freakin short on cash right now.. So I thought to myself.. I have soo many Band Tees,why not sell them? Hahaha! Good idea.. So anyway.. All sizes are in Medium. I'm selling them at 7 bucks a piece. Cheap huh? I've barely worn any of them. I have 1 band tee from Alesana,2 from Bring me the Horizon,1 from The Used and 1 from As I Lay Dying. So yeah.. Just 7 bucks a piece. Anything just tag me at my tagboard. See you guys! ^^

damn it

2010-01-25T19:47:00.003+08:00

Hey people. Just dropping by to blog after a long time. Let me see what happened so far.. Hmm..
Oh yeah! Went for a chalet with friends. Gosh it was fun. We hung out,had a few ups and downs,had a lot of fun and I got A FREAKING SUN BURN! GOD IT BURNS!!! Hmm.. what else.. Oh yeah.. My 5 month Anni with Fafa just passed. But the suckish part was that I didn't get the chance to celebrate it with her.. Like FUCK SIAL! Sigh.. Maybe some other time.. Baby's prepaid is low so she can't text me. Guess I'll have to wait till she tops up.. Been a week plus since I last met up with baby.. Damn I miss her.. Oh well.. She's busy with work.. Guess I'll just have to wait till she's free.. Sigh.. Soo suck.. I'll end here.. I've got nothing left to say.. Bye..

2010-01-05T16:56:00.004+08:00

Hey guys.. Finale back after a long time.. Me and Fafa go back together.. Apperently,she felt kinda bumped out about breaking up with me.. So she came back to me.. You should have seen the look on my face when she finale came back to me.. I was soo happy.. I felt reliefed.. I felt at peace at last.. I've been feeling misserable for the past few weeks when we broke up,as you guys could see from my last few posts.. Yeah.. I just wanted to die.. I told her I'd wait for her and I'd never stop loving her. Well,I guess all the time waiting was worth it.. Thank you baby for accepting me back..

I love you unconditionally
I'll be your shoulder whenever you need to cry
I'll hold you close to me whenever you're feeling cold
I'll kiss you and tell you that I love you soo much just to see you smile and feel happy
I'll tell you I love you everyday just to make you feel comfortable

I'd do more for you baby.. I'm at your disposale.. My love for you will never die.. I love you baby..

2009-11-21T02:22:00.004+08:00

Crying right now.. Listening to old Alesana songs.. Came across 2 of my favourite songs from the band. They're my favourite because they are really meaningfull and it reflects my current situation and how I'm feeling.. I cry. I cry an endless stream of tears. I cry because I'm filled with sadness. I cry because I'm depressed. I cry because I hate my life.. I cry because I hate the current situation I'm in.. I cry.. I simply cry..

(early mourning lyrics)
kiss my closing eyes
help me sleep without you
I'm soo lost
Tonight I cry
Tell me why
I can't live without your warm embrace
why not one more night
one last kiss goodbye
my sweet love tonight
i hope the stars still spell out your name
i close my eyes and you're everything i see

(As you wish Lyrics)
Life is meaningless without you
Love can be such a beautifull torture
my heart breaks as i long for you
love can be such lovely torture
will you forgive what i've done

These lyrics mean alot to me. They reflect on how I'm feeling these past few days.. I don't know what to do.. I just hope.. I just wish.. I just want things to be good again.. But what can a guy like me do? I'm a nobody.. All I can do is wait patiently. I will wait till that faithfull day comes.. I am determined,I am is persistent.. I will wait.. For as longas my heart is beating.. I will wait.. I swear..

2009-11-19T16:01:00.002+08:00

I'm single now.. Great.. Awesome.. Like whatever. I'm obviously not happy about it..
FuckMyLife
I feel soo dead.. I feel soo lost.. I feel soo vulnerable..
I think if i realy breakdown.. Here's what my routine will be like.

Blame myself for letting it happen
Cry
Cry
Cry
Slash
Cry
Slash
Cry
Slash
Cry
Pick up handphone and try to text her,scared she won't reply.
Toss handphone one side
Cry
Swear and curse myself
Cry
Cry
Slash
Slash
Slash
Bleed till i fade out
If i'm lucky i'll live. If not,well.. You guys know how that ends right?

2009-11-16T23:43:00.002+08:00

ITS NOT MY FAULT! I DID'NT ASK TO BE LIKE THIS! GAAAAAH!
I WANNA DIE! I DON'T WANNA HURT ANYONE ANYMORE! I DON'T WANNA BE SOME GUY WHO FEELS HE'S JUST BEEN TAKEN FOR GRANTED ANYMORE!! I JUST DON'T WANNA HURT ANYONE ANYMORE..

RIP

2009-11-16T02:37:00.004+08:00

Can't sleep..
Irregular heartbeats.. Gaah! I think I'm dying.. Been having lots of problems with my body..
Been blacking out,heart pain,shortage of breathe,mood swings,can't sleep.. Damn.. I need to get outta here.. Go to someplace where I can be alone and suffer alone.. A place where I don't have to drag my friends,family and gf into the situation.. I don't wanna be a burden.. I feel like a burden.. Idk what to do.. The previous post was kinda 'mad' at the beginning and 'lovey dovey,sensitive,depressed,EMO' in the end because of these mood swinga.. Damn it.. I wanna edit that post but freakin lazy.. Sigh.. I think I'm blacking out soon.. Currently playing CafeWorld. Thanks to Fafa. Its the least I could.. Who knows.. That might be the last thing I would do.. I planned out my obituary already. A honest one too.

In memory of Muhammad Hakim bin Daud
Born in the year 1992 on the 23rd of December
Son of Daud Yusof and Anizah bte Wahid
Elder brother of Nurul Hannah bte Daud

May he finally find peace in the afterlife
May he forever be remembered
May his last words not be forgotten

Died at a young age of 17. Led the life of a gangster at an early age of 14 till 16.Took drugs,smoked 5 boxes a week,drank alcohol.
Started mutilating himself at the age of 16. Tried killing himself at the age of 16.
Almost killed himself at the age of 16.
Cried almost everyday at the age of 16 till 17.
Met Fafa at the age of 17. Fell deeply in love and moved into a relationship on 23 August 2009.
Changed for the best. Still smokes. Stopped drinking and taking drugs. Seldom mutilate himself. Seldom think of suicide, Started having problems with body. Blcked out randomly. Irregular heartbeats frequently. Random mood swings. Tries to deny suicide but it seems like the only option for him.. Blacked out and dies quietly in bed.

Rest in peace

empty promises

2009-11-16T00:29:00.003+08:00

Hey guys.
Remember when I said that the previous post would be my last? My official last? Well.. I only said that because I was pissed off and fuckin' frustrated at my gf. Yeah.. That was last time.. Now seems to be getting better. So far.. We'll see how long this will last.. If something wrong ever happens again. I won't say sorry. Believe me babe.. Because I have not done anything wrong. I've always given in. Admitting eventhough it clearly wasn't my fault. Well I'm sick and tired of it. You wanted to have a serious relationship with me so buck up babe. Just freaking buck up your freaking attitude. Your pride go and flush down the toilet bowl because that's not what this relationship needs. I hope this message gets through you.. Kesian baby.. Fever ):
Will visit you at work later. But I don't even know what time you start because you're freakin not replying my messages because you're freaking asleep!!! LOL

Ok.. Time for a random quiz

1.Do you love someone? If yes who?
Yes. My parents,sister,gf

2.What do you feel like doing now?
Taking out my heart and give it a massage because it freakin hurts right now..

3.Have you eaten? If yes,what did you eat?
McSpicy Meal(Upsized) ^^

4.Have you ever attempted suicide?
Yes

5.Have you ever slashed your wrist?
Yes

6.Have you ever cried for someone you love?
Yes

7.Have you ever cried because you feel insecure,stupid and taken for granted?
Yes. All the time

8.Do you love your gf?
Yes

9.Realy?
Yes

10.Honestly?
Yes

11.Come on dude.. After all the shit she put you through?
Urr.. Since you put it that way..

12.Well?
I still love her no matter what. I'll never give up on her.

13.Are you crazy dude?
Yes I am. Mentally crazy and emotionally crazy in love with my baby

14.How many pushups you've done today?
300

15.WOAH! Plan on doing anymore?
Probally another 200..

16.O.O What's your best features?
People say eyes are my best,but some think my dicky is the best of all xD

bye

2009-10-31T04:56:00.003+08:00

Sorry.. This is the official last post.
I will be gone from Facebook,VampireFreaks and MSN for a long time. So anything just text me la.. The reason is.. I don't see a point going online anymore.. To me its just a fucking waste of time.. Like seriously.. I'd rather be sitting in the rain,crying my eyes out than going online. So yeah.. That's about it. I'll probally be back on the site in like,urr... In December maybe?? Idk.. I don't really care now.. Oh well.. It's raining.. Phone has been damn quite today.. I'm gonna go sit outside in the rain.. Goodbye people. I'm probally notifying myself that I'm going to go away because I think there is hardly anyone who reads my blog.. Oh well.. You never know.. I gotta go now. Bye! This is seriously my last post till I get back..

last entry

2009-10-31T01:56:00.002+08:00

28 october 2009

Dear diary.. It's just me.. No one special.. Don't mind me.. I'm just pouring out my thoughts for today.

Went to work. Yeap.. I'm working at Topshop at Raffles City. Didn't feel like working.. Don't have any mood.. Smiled and greeted customers.. Chatted and laughed with my workmates.. If only my smiles and laughter were real.. I seriously didn't have mood.. I didn't want any of my friends to know. So I concealed my true feelings.. Sigh.. Someone kill me please..

29 october 2009

Dear diary.. Hey it's me again. Just pouring out my feelings and sharing my thoughts for today..

Went to work.. Had to work full shift. 10 till closing. Seriously no mood. I don't know why.. Well actually I do know why.. I know exactly why.. But I'm not gonna say it.. Sigh.. Fake smiles and laughter again. Failed attempts to make myself happy by making stupid jokes and taking about lame stuff. Made a few people laugh.. Well.. At least they're happy.. Sigh.. Lucky them.. I wonder why I'm always the one who feel like crap.. I know there's obviously more people out there feeling the same way.. Well guys.. Hope you guys get your lives back together soon.. Goodbye..

30 october 2009

Dear diary.. Guess who? Yeah.. It's just me.. No one special.. I still feel the same.. I'm sick and tired of pretending to be happy. I'm sick and tired of faking how faking my true feelings.. I'm sick and tired of the pain I feel in my heart.. I'm sick of my life.. Someone please kill me..

31 october 2009

Dear diary.. This will be my last entry.. It's time to bid you farewell.. Its 2.15 am and I still feel the same.. Meeting adik later.. I'm probbally going to break down infront of her.. Sigh.. It's late.. Gotta go.. Goodbye diary..

sorry

2009-10-26T00:50:00.002+08:00

Well.. 2nd month of my relationship with Fafa just passed.. We went out to watch a movie and than met up with Abang Elfie. Been a while since a saw that dude..

But like everything in life,all good things come to an end eventually..

I had a fight with Fafa.. Well I guess its my fault.. I guess I was just caught up being insecure and scared.. Scared to let the past come forth again and bite me in my ass.. I just don't wanna get hurt again.. I guess it's my fault for letting my fear overcome one of the most important things in my life.. It made me not trust Fafa.. One of the things I regret doing.. I mean.. As a boyfriend,I should just trust her.. Without trust,what's the point of having a relationship? Sigh.. I wish I could just turn back time.. I just want us to be happy like the time I was in Australia.. How I wish..

Baby.. I'm sorry for causing you soo much pain.. I'm sorry for making you feel like shit sometimes.. I'm sorry if I somehow made you feel that my love for you has changed for the worst.. I'm sorry baby.. I still love you.. I still care for you.. No matter what I'll always do..

I'll still hold on to the promises we made to eachother.. They really mean alot to me and I know deep down they mean alot to you too..

I love you baby..

oli

2009-10-16T00:03:00.002+08:00

My idol c:

Thanks kak sasha for intro-ing him c: I'll alwqays be your lil Oli^^

I want his hair! Damn.. Maybe if i keep it for another year.. Hmm..
Damn.. His hair is Goresome!

baby

2009-10-15T23:58:00.001+08:00

Baby I'm soo sorry..
I'm soo sooo sooo sorry.. I added on to the stress.. I'm sorry..
I love you soo much and I don't wanna lose you..

emo

2009-09-21T03:51:00.004+08:00

I don't know why.. I've been feeling friggen depressed lately.. Friggen dropdead suicidal.. But I did'nt hurt myself la.. Don't worry.. But I just felt like killing myself. I don't know why I'm feeling this way.. I know I should be happy because it's Hari Raya and stuff.. But I'm not.. I'm just a freaking actor.. I conceal my true feelings with fake smiles and laughter.. Sigh.. I want this pain I feel to end.. Right now.. One way or another..

Another thing.. Since its Hari Raya,I would like to seek forgiveness from all my friends,family and my beloved.. Please forgive me for all the bad things I've done,the hurtfull things I've said and the actions that make you guys doubt me.. I am really sorry.. Please forgive me..

Sigh..

Baby I wish you were here.. I miss you soo much.. *cries*

i model

2009-09-04T20:25:00.005+08:00

Just came back from I Models.. Took my portfolio. There were 50 pics. But I liked these 2 the most.. Tired uh.. Walked around town alone like a god damn freaking loner.. Haizz... Went to Wheelock Place eventually and sat around Borders. Read a book about vampires. *CAN YOU EVEN IMAGINE ME READING A BOOK*
It was interesting.

Missing baby alooot.
Meeting her tomorrow! YAYNESS!
Damn I miss her..

im sick!

2009-09-01T01:20:00.003+08:00

Baby's fav pic^^

Sigh..

Baby got scolding from mummy and daddy for nothing..

I pity her ):

But I did manage to cheer her up c:

That's my job!^^ I LOVE YOU BABY!

Today went to doctor.

Face was swelling.. Gaaaah! My viral infection is kicking up again! It really sux and it's friggen irratating.. My eyes are puffy now.

So bought medicine. Went home and take medicine. Felt drowsy,so went to sleep.. Woke up at around 12. LOL! I slept at 6pm.. I have MC from puase for the next 5 days!

Took medicine again. Feeling loopy now..

Ahhh...

BABY TOP UP ALREADY! YAY! XD

Did i mention to you guys that I friggen love her? *probally more than a million times already*

LOL^^

Feels good to be in love.. Just the thought of her made me feel abit better..

Damn I miss her..

I wanna hug her..

I'll end here. .

Later gonna talk to baby otp^^

YAY! XD

I shall stop bragging now.

Peace outr BITCHES!

IMY

2009-08-30T21:48:00.003+08:00

Ohhh..

I feel like shit..
I feel soo vulnerable..
I feel soo hopelesss..
I fell soo weak..
I feel soo misserable..

The only thing that's pushing me is the thought of finale meeting baby and just feeling her warm embrace and just feel as if all the problems in the world would just dissappear..

Baby could'nt come..
Sigh..
Sadness T.T
But its ok.. I understand..
Its not your fault..
Damn.. Imy soo much..

I'll always be there for you..
I'm there in your thoughts..
I'm there in your dreams..
Most importantly,I'm always there in your heart..

Gaaaah!
IMY
IMY
IMY
IMY
IMY
IMY
IMY
IMY

T.T

emo

2009-08-29T18:53:00.002+08:00

I straightened my hair for fun^^

Ooooh..

I have a headache.. I feel like shit..

Its like the entire planet Earth is resting on my shoulders..

Every step I take feels soo heavy.. Like an unknown force is pressing down on me..

Sigh.. It hurts soo good.. O.O

I realised something.. I'm not scene anymore.. I'm starting to believe that I'm actually emo..

Yeah.. Thanks to baby.. LOL

Damn I friggen love her.. So yeah.. Any of you people have a problem with that or have something to say about it.. I invite you people to speak your mind..

I don't give a f**k about your insults and dumb comments..

You wanna say any,than say..

Now that I got that off my chest,I have something to say..

I miss baby and my orgasm family.. Soo much..

Sigh.. Can't wait to meet them..

Baby said that she'd try to come over on sunday.. I hope she can make it.. I realy do..

I'll end here now..

Byee guys.. Till next time..

Fuck

2009-08-28T00:10:00.003+08:00

To all the assholes out there who don't understand what the fuck "in a relationship" status means.
The girl already has a fuckin' boyfriend for goodness sake! Still don't get it is it?
Means she's not interested with all of your flirty comments or dumb pick up lines. FUCKERS!
JUST FUCK OFF AND STOP BOTHERING HER CANN OR NOT?
You think I'm just talking big on my blog? Well you don'tknow me..
You wanna try my patience,be my guess. At the end of the day,you're the one whose gonna need an ambulance. Trust me,I've beaten up soo many people already,broken soo many bones,disfigured soo ny faces. Try me.. I dare you.

workout

2009-08-27T01:13:00.002+08:00

Hey guys. Try out this workout.
I just invented it. Its cardio. Means that you're using your own body weight to get fit.
Cardio consist of swimming,running,push ups,sit ups and etc. Has nothing to do with weight lifting.

Ok.Here's my workout

20 standard push ups (5 sets)
20 diamond push ups(5 sets)
20 spiderman push ups(5 sets)
20 commando push ups(5 sets)
20 elevated push ups(5 sets)
25 sit ups(4 sets)
25 crunches(4 sets)

I'm telling you.. My body is friggen light and my hands are like jelly..
BUT I FEEL GORESOME!
Try it out guys! :D

2009-08-26T16:08:00.003+08:00

I'll love you till the end of time.Till the sun no longer shines.

DAMMIT! I THINK I'M TURNING INTO AN EMO! I BLAME YOU BABY! Just kidding c:

Hey guys!

Firstly,I wanna thank Nat for trying to help me change my blog pic and song.

Secondly,I wanna thank Nana for changing my blog pic and song.

Thank you guys! Me loves you all very much! *Act cute*

So time for an update.

Went to Terawih wearing baju kurung for the 1st time!

GORESOME! I usualy wear a plain black long sleeve and my black boot cut pants plus slippers la. Duh-.-

Felt great!LOL!I have no idea why..

Afterwards,walked home.

Seriously uh..It felt friggen good to be good (:

Maybe I should just stay home this fasting month,go out just to do my Friday prayers and pray Terawih. That means I won't be going to Baybeats this year. Nevermind la.. A small price to pay..

While walking home,me and Alip(Parrot) was talking about making a band. Tripple H(Hardcore Hippie Heroes) We made that up out of a random conversation about hippies. They rock.. So I'll be the one holding the mic and gore-ring(suare setan orang tua kate) Alip will be the vocalist plus scream(Not scream like a girl*no offence ladies* but the suare setan except high pitch)

We already have bass,my old friend,Arep.

All we need is a lead guitarist,rythym guitarist and drummer.

So hears a shoutout to all you HARDCORE FREAKS out there!

If you're interested,just tell us. Don't be scared,we don't bite,well Alip does'nt,but I do.. OOPS!

So back to the being good thingy.

Reached home. Baby said she'd call.Time was 2.35.

Was chatting with Nana(my life kambing)

We shared stories and stuff..

I check the time,it was 3.05. Had to go for sahur. Said byebye to Nana and text baby.

These were the actual words,"BABY! T.T"

I went to eat afterwards. Heard my phone's message tone ring.I just let it be.

After eating,I went to see who messaged me. It was baby. Actual words,"Baby sri i fall aslp"

I was like.... T.T

I remembered at that point of time what Siq and I were talking about before we went home. Talked about being good. We reflected on the things that went oh soo wrong in our lives.. Sad man.. We almost cried.

I was thinking of that all the way even when I reached home,even when I'm chatting with Nana. Sorry did'nt tell you my beloved kambing ):

I did'nt want to ruin the fun conversation we were having..

I replied baby,"SAD SIA"

She asked for forgiveness. I told her it wad'nt her fault that I was sad. I explained myself and stuff. Asked her to call my handphone and we talked and talked till it was her turn to sahur. She called me once she was done and we talked and talked and talked. I was happy.. Hearing her voice just made me feel soo happy. It may seem weird but hey.. When you're in love,everything would seem weird to others..

Dammit baby.. I love you soo much.. Will sing the song I wrote to you when we meet ok? c:

Nervous sia! Must practice! Like my grandma always say,practice makes perfect (:

The see the song I wrote for Fafa,go to her blog and check it out. Tell me what you guys think about it c:

I'll end here now..Byee guys!

i love you c:

2009-08-24T17:00:00.003+08:00

WOOOOHOOO!
ATTACHED BABY! YEAH! Ahhh.. Life is good..
I'm soo freaking happy!
My proposal was short and simple

Me:You know I love you right?
Fafa:Yeah..
Me:You know I wanna be with you right?
Fafa:Yeah.. Baby you're scaring me O.O
Me:LOL!Are you ready?
Fafa:Umm..Urr..
Me:I got you a rose btw..
Fafa:OMG! O.O
Me:Will you be my girlfriend?
Fafa:*Hugs* i love you soo much
Me:Urr..Is that a yes?
Fafa:What do you think? (:
Me:Its a YES! OMG!
Me&Fafa:JUST MARRIED! XD

Yeah.It was fun.. Damn happy..
Celebrated Nat's Birthday too.LOL!
It was a surprise birthday for her and a surprise proposal for baby c:
I love you c:
Hakim and Fafa HeartAttack (23.08.09)

EH! That means my birthday will be our 4 months anniversary! xD
WOOOOOOO!

Soo sorry to my parents for coming home at 3 plus...
Missed last train and last bus..Forgotten that there was night rider...
At least I came home for sahur!
Lucky my friend have car..

XOXO

2009-08-21T15:15:00.003+08:00

I miss my bro and my long hair ):

Hey guys!
Yesterday was awesome..Play guitar hero with the guys!
We rocked the house! Hahahaha!
We play like there was no tomorrow.. GORESOME!
Some people sucked at it,, LOL!KIDDING GUYS!^^
Afterwards,went to town and meet family. I was sick so the train trip made me nauseous..
Mum scold me for no reason-.-
Me:I take the train side that's heading to Marina Bay via woodlands
Mum:I told you to take the train heading to woodlands right?!
Me:YA LAH!I AM TAKING THAT TRAIN!
Mum:Sorry.Was'nt wearing my glasses when I read and replied your text
Me:-.- you owe me ice cream..

Met them at Orchard Mrt 711
Got my ice cream and went to the movie.
Funny,cute and gut busting movie

Went home,eat at coffee shop,shower,talk to baby otp and the rest is history c:

I love you

2009-08-15T03:15:00.002+08:00

Hey guys!
Sorry for MIA-ing for a long time..Well I'm back and I'm here to stay!
Yay-ness!^^
So yeah..
What have I been doing? Well,I've been busy with my family..Spending time with them..
So I'm soo sorry guys for not hanging out with you for such a long time ):
Basically,I got a job. I'm not gonna tell you guys what it is yet.
Its a surprise (:
Those who know what it is,keep it to yourself,don't ruin the surprise or else I ask the nenek jual keropok ketok your house.
Mwahahaha! xD

Ok.. I wanna clear up a few things on my mind.
Basically,I heard that someone has been talking shit about other people just because they sympathize MJ-.- What the fark is up with you.. Its already good that people show sympathy for his death. But what do some people do? Some people just can't stand it. Wanna know why guys? Its because some people just can't stand seeing people post sympathetic posts on their blog. They think that they are 'THE NUMBER 1 MJ FAN' so they should be the only one who gets to mourn over him. People like this seriously have issues.. Get a life people! Go get a boyfriend/girlfriend! Because seriously,you need something better to do than bitch about other people for the lamest reasons..

Ok.. Now that that's over,let's move on to serious matters..

I miss my baby.. I miss her soo much..
Dammit! I just wanna hug her and not let her go T.T
Tell her how I feel about her..
I heart you baby c:

Okok..Time for a music update..

I've been listening to alot of Dr Acula.
This band is awesome..
I have a new catch phrase..
Its,I have come here to chew bubblegum and kick ass.. But I'm all out of bubblegum
HAHAHA! AWESOME!

Now,I wanna end here. Bye darlings!
OH! I'm gonna go to the gig at Scape later at 7.30pm. WOOOHOOO!Gonna mosh like crazy! HWAHWAHWA! xD

wtf?

2009-07-23T00:17:00.004+08:00

Who in the fuck said I treated you like a emotionless person?
Like wtf?
Don't you remember the nights I'd stay up with you just to accompany you and to hear your voice?
Don't you remember the times when we would text silly things to one another?
I guess you don't remember it since you're making me sound like I'm the one in the wrong.
Look here,I was being honest when I told you the truth.Guess that you could'nt accept it.Oh well. .Dream about me when I decided that we were better of as friends?
If that's the case,than why the fuck is up with your sarcasm?You know what. .
I viewed mummy's profile on tagged.I read her tagline,'To always Look Forward, Move forward & never look back & Whine for what had happened in the Past.'
She's right,because if you do whine about the past,it'll just bite you in the ass and leave you scarred.Trust me. .You don't want that. .
Forget me ..Forget all the things we've been through..Move on.You deffinately deserve better.
I'm not your trouble anymore.Go on with your life,find a guy who's perfect for you.I'm sure that there is one.If you think my words disgust you?Your words make me feel like vomitting out blood.Sigh. .
Well,you hate me,I used to hate you.I burried my hate with my sins. .
So just forget any of this things happen.Move on and just look forward.
That's exactly what I'm doing right now.
I'm buzzing off now guys.
I wonder what has become of my orgasm family. .

i hate my uncle

2009-07-21T17:24:00.004+08:00

My hair is getting longer^^

I feel soo relieved. .
I've let it all out. .Well. .Almost everything.
I just wanna know what mummy,my elder sisters and my brothers think of me ..
You guys are probally looking down on me. .
It's not my fault the feeling ran away. .
If you guys can imagine,I prayed to god almost everyday when I arrived here to tell me what I should do. .
After a week I finale knew what had to be done. .
It was a way that will make sure that no one would get hurt. .
Besides,you were only faking your feelings.When we chat,I did'nt feel the love at all.
You were treating me as if I was your close friend.Don't deny it and try to cover it with your lies and make me look bad. .
I am an honest guy when it come to relationships.
I had my fair share of the shitty parts of a relationship back before I knew you.
So I can tell when someone is faking their feelings now. .Don't take me for a fool. .
It'd be the last thing that you'd want to do. .
I told you how I felt and how it would help us not to rush things and stuff.I said that it would be best if we were friends.You agreed and look what happened?You went back on your words.You freaking liar!You lied at the airport when I was about to leave because you probally felt sad that there was no one to accompany you through the nights.You lied because you pity me and you lied because you wanted me to feel 'happy'.Well let me tell you now. .
I'm happier now and I'm better off without you.
If anyone of my orgasm family is reading this,now you know how I feel.The pain of finale figuring out why she said the she 'loved' me.Well,it was a hoax. .A lie. .A big fat lie. .Not as big as the lie that cheap slut told me.But hey,both were lying when they said they loved me.
I did love you dammit,its just that the love I felt was'nt strong enough to withstand my long stay here. .Well. .That's about it for that part of this post. .Now onto my family.

GOD!I KNOW THAT I'VE BEEN SAYING THIS IN ALMOST EVERY POST SINCE I'VE BEEN HERE,BUT I MISS THEM SOO MUCH!I LOOOVE THEM SOO MUCH!I MISS HELPING MY SISTER WITH HER HOMEWORK1I MISS COOKING,MAKING A MESS IN THE KITCHEN THAN MUM WOULD SCOLD ME AND STUFF!I MISS HAVING THOSE RANDMO ONE TO ONE CONVERSATIONS WITH MY DAD!T.T
I WANNA GO HOME!
GAAAH!
BUT I HAVE TO STAY HERE TILL SEPTEMBER 13.
IDK HOW I CAN SURVIVE GUYS,IT'S SOO BORING HERE1
LIGHTS ALL OFF BEFORE 1AM,INTERNET MODEM IS OFF BY 2AM!
CAN'T EVEN WATCH TV TILL 4AM ANYMORE!IF NOT THAT GOOD FOR NOTHING PAK LONG COME OUT AND YELL AND SAY AWFUL THINGS.
HE CALLED ME A BINATANG!THAT SON OF A BITCH!I HATE HIM!WHEN HE'S GIVING HIS TALK ABOUT ISLAM,HE WOULD AIM AT THE SO CALLED 'BAD STUFF' THAT I DID!ENJOY2,TAK TIDO SAMPAI MALAM BUTA AND ETC. .WHY CAN'T HE TELL ME DIRECTLY!TAKDE KONEK KEPE SIAL!KEPALA BUTO!GERAM SIAL ABG. .SORRY FOR MY OFFENSIVE LANGUAGE MAMA AND PAPA,MAKE SURE HANNA DOES'NT READ TRHIS POST.I'M JUST SOO MAD!I SWEAR ONE DAY I'LL BASH HIS FACE TILL NO ONE CAN RECONIZE HIM!I KNOW ITS A SIN BUT WHO CARES!*YOU GUYS DO* I'M JUST SOO MAD AT HIM!
I KNOW WHAT I HUAVE TO DO FOR MY FUTURE MAMA,PAPA. .I'M GONNA WORK THIS YEAR,START SCHOOL NEXT YEAR AT ITE BB,TAKING THE FITNESS COURSE.I'M GONNA STICK THROUGH IT AND I AM GOING TO DO NS AFTERWARDS,I'M GONNA CONTINUE SCHOOLING AT SHAWTEC IF POSSIBLE,OTHERWISE I GO TO ITE CLEMENTI AND TAKE THE CULINARY COURSE THERE,MAYBE FROM THERE I CAN GO TO SHAWTEK. .I really wanna go to Shawtek and fullfill my dreams..I hope you guys read this.I wanna go home. .
This is my plan. .If it does'nt work. .I'll think of something,I alwas do c:
Oh yeah. .Get me out of here guys!

I hate you

2009-07-21T02:42:00.004+08:00

Hey you!
I tried being nice,I tried patching up what's left of our friendship,but you did'nt give me a chance.
All I got was your sarcastic bullshit.Like wtf?
Than you say that I've been giving you crap?Fuck you la sial!
Wurl!Kau ngan si pompan sundal tu pun sama la perangai.Dua2 suka wurl. .
Whatever la eh. .Have it your way. .
At least now I figured out why you told me you loved me.It was only because you were telling me what I wanted to hear from you.Because you know that I wanted you to tell me that you felt the same way. .Please la. Takmo nak step gerek la. Immature lil brat. .
Fuck off and die for all I care. . Just pls dun give me trouble anymore la. .
To me,you are no longer bella. .
I don't want any trouble with my orgasm family.I want things to be the same. .
Back before you came around. .Don't tell me any of them some shitty storey.I told you how I felt.
At least you did'nt fall IN LOVE with me when I told you.If not you'd be emo-ing at one corner.
But hey,I can see that you're doing better.
So don't pretend that you're feeling all fucked up.
Your life is soo fucked up.
'I feel soo pathetic' I feel soo useless. .Idk why'
Fucked up huh?
Well ..That's just you.I'm telling the truth.

Mama,papa,if you guys are reading this.I'm just telling you guys the truth. .
I'll delete this post at the end of the week.
I love you guys and I miss you guys sooo much ):
I'll be back soon k?
Take care of hanna.Hahha!Tell her that I got her something cute that she'll like c:
I got you guys something too.Hahaha!

family

2009-07-15T01:00:00.002+08:00

Hey guys!Back again for another update.
This time its about my family,no not my orgasm family,my real family.
Hahaha!
So yeah. .
I miss them soo much.
I love them soo much.
I miss my mum's screaming and cooking.
I miss my dad ignoring me and always taking us all out to a great dinner.
I miss my sis and her chubby cheeks.Hahaha!
Okokok. .
I miss our family outings!Salalabis. .LOL!
I MISS THEM SOOOO MUCH!GODDAMMIT!
I CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME AND GIVE THEM A BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIG HUG! T.T

OH!
Ps:I love my family c:

hey

2009-07-13T21:29:00.003+08:00

Say hello to my lil friend.Hahaha!Hey guys!Guess what?I got a date!LOL!Hahaha!I can't wait!Hehe^^ If any of you people got a problem with that?That bitch about it,I don't care.I don't see a reason to dwell in the past because it'll only come up and bite you in the ass in future.So yeah. .I'm sure you guys will get it. .
I haven changed one bit people.I'm still the same friendly,funny,cheerful,will always be there for you Hakim.Hahaha!Believe me. .
So yeah. .One last thing,I went to the gym and damn ..The girls there were awesome. .They were really friendly too.Hahaha!I like that c:
That's about it.
OHOHOH!1 LAST THING!Actually,a few last things.Hehe c:
I miss my Orgasm Family!I miss kak Sasha,kak Belle,Mummy,Utt,Dust and Mira.I miss my family too!Gaaah!And lastly,I miss my friends,my real friends.Not the ones who stab you in the back friends.So yeap. .That's about it. Byee guys.
Till the next update (:

T.T

2009-07-10T21:09:00.004+08:00

My Future Wife's going to look a lil bit like her c:

Damn. .She's soo hot^^

Umm. .I think by the time1 I come back from Aussie,my hair will look like this guy,but fuckin' curly.LOL!

hello

2009-07-07T00:40:00.002+08:00

Hello my fellow readers!
How are you guys?Been doing great?If yes,than good for you c: If no,I suggest finding a window and jump out of it.LOL!Just kidding xD For some of you loved by me people-.- The rest can just *click* off.

So yeah. .Webcam with sayang yesterday.It was fun. .Seriously. .Well,its cold as hell here.
I'm dressed like and eskimomomomomo xP Like seriously. .Its that cold here.LOL!I'm soo not used to the weather here.
Hahaha!Kak sasha,sayang and utt,don't worry about it. .At least you made and effort to come to see me off c:
I'm touched. .Really,I am. .
So yeah. .
I'll end here.
I miss all my babies!See you when I get back from here alright?
I'm following my cousin to her colledge later in the morning.Oooo. .Colledge girls here I come!Hahaha!Just kidding dear c;

look alike

2009-07-01T04:43:00.007+08:00

Hey guys!It's another all niter for me today.IDK what time I'm going to sleep today.So yeah. .I'm gonna blog about my so called look-alike.He's famous.He's got tattoos all over.He's in a band called Bring Me The Horizon.He's better looking than Alex Evans that's for sure.Oh!Lastly,people say we look alike.Hahaha!
Why don't you guys be the judge of that statement.Here's some of his photos.

So what do you guys think?Do I look like him?Vote people!VOTE NOW AT MY TAGBOARD! xD

drums

2009-06-30T23:46:00.002+08:00

Travis Barker is THE BEST DRUMMER!Here's a video of him doing a cover for Soulja Boi's hit,CRANK THAT!LOL! c:

yay

2009-06-30T08:38:00.005+08:00

WOOOOOHOOOOOO!
I finally finished the new game my dad my dad bought for us!In just 2 days!Hahahaha!The game was fun,plus gory,plus violent,plus interesting and plus many more pluses! xD
So yeah. .I miss the orgasm family. .I hope you guys can make it on Saturday ):
I also miss my friends. .Sigh. .And I especially miss my Bella..Haiyaya. .I hope you can make it this Saturday T.T

I have been staying up this past 2 nights playing the game,going online and thinking a lot about a lot of things.I'll be gone for 2 and a half months,so if anybody has something to say,speak now.I don't want any crap from any of you while I'm away for a long time.
So yeah. .Anyway,I camwhored earlier ;D
I edited the pics but not soo much edits.Just a couple of minor edits.Here they are,you can also find them at my tagged account.
So yeah. .Listening to the song 'Toxic' by A Static Lullaby.It's the shit of the shit.Not the smelly,yucky,poopy shit.The cool,hardcore and rock my ass off shit!Hahaha!
Anyway,here's the pictures I took and edited c;

So yeah,that's about it.Just a few more things to clear up.People now days are being soo hypocritical.When MJ was around,people called him a molester,a weirdo,a wannabe white guy and many other insults.Now that he's gone,they all claim that they liked him,they'll miss him and all the other bullshit.All of these kind of people should just 'beat it'!Seriously,the world do not need people like that.Like seriously. .Why am I saying all this?Because of 1 reason.I myself am a MJ fan.I may mention it in my blog or mention him when I'm hanging out with my friends,but yeah. .I'm a fan of MJ.
If any of you people have a problem with that,I suggest you type down your REAL name and tag my tagboard.

Ok.Glad that I got that outta my system.God bless his soul.

yuna

2009-06-22T00:45:00.003+08:00

I'm soo addicted to Yuna and Zee Avi thanks to my dear kambing,Nana.
We talked about kissing and lalala and wahahaha and gahahaha.Hahahaha! xD
So yeah. .I miss her alot. .
And to Mira,I'm glad you loved your present c:
Ok. .Orgasm Family went out,and I could'nt make it. .Oh well. .Maybe next time alright?
So yeah. .HAPPY BELATED FATHER'S DAY!Eventhough you dont trust me anymore,that's your problem and ILY dad(:
HAHAHA! XD
So yeah. .That's about it. .Here's some vids of Yuna and Zee Avi.Enjoy^^

Bitter Heart(I sang this song with Nana c:)

Rocket

Dan Sebenarnya

Cinta Sempurna(Nana's favourite song)

lol

2009-06-14T23:40:00.002+08:00

I'm bored. .So let's blog.
Like my grandma always said,"When in doubt,BLOG!" xD
Okay,that was random.Hahaha!But my blog is even more random.
I'm gonna blog about my friends and my 'friends'.

In life,you're bound to make friends and 'friends'.
Friends are the people who would stick by you through thick and thin,tell you honestly if you did something to piss them off and not talk behind your back about it,will make sure that you have a great time when you go out with them,will try to make you happy,will admit if they did anything wrong,will tell the truth even if it hurts you and etc.

But just as things seem soo good and your life is perfect,you start to make 'friends'.These are the kind of people who befriend you just to step all over you,to backstab you or to simply hurt you.These are the people who pretend to be your friends,who don't appreciate a single thing that you do,they wanna see you get hurt and they give the lamest advice,wants to have everything that you have,tries to take away whoever that you're interested in and simply lies just about everything.I know someone who fits this just nice.Do you know who you are?You're the same person I blogged about on the 5th of June.You fucker! c:
Hahaha!You fucking backstabber!You fucking liar!You fucking poser!You're a fucking flirt!That means ladies,don't fall for his 'sweet talking' or his 'romeo composure' or whatever crap.From what I hear from most girls,you noobs think that he's 'cute'?
*Pukes* Trust me sister,he may look 'cute' and whatever CRAP,but once you're with him,you're considered dead.
He'll suck all the money out of your purses,he'll use you to satisfy his needs and than once he's had enough 'fun',he gives you this shitty attitude and purposely make you wanna give up on him.That's just what he wants you girls to do.Afterwards,he goes for his next victim,and this cycle just goes on and on and on until 1 fine day,the ALMIGHTY decides to pull the plug on him.Hahaha!Kwakwakwa!

So yeah. .That's my random post.Tell me how you guys feel about it on my tagboard c:

Byee and takecare
xoxo

FYI,I was enjoying myself when I typed that post,and now,I'm having a similar feeling.Nyehehehehe xp

blog

2009-06-12T22:33:00.008+08:00

Hey guys!I'm flying to KL tomorrow.Will be back by next Tuesday.So I just wanna say say I'll miss alooot of people,especially my 'family'.Mira blogged about me!Yay!Well actually,I asked her to blog about me^^ So thank you!To know more about the post,read up her log.She's at my links.
So I'll end here and I promise I'll blog again when I get back from KL.Bye guys and behave while I'm gone c;

2009-06-10T18:33:00.002+08:00

Hey guys.Just dropping by to promote my new favorite artist,NeverShoutNever.
Besides having great hair,his music's great and I hope you guys like this song as much as I do c:

funny

2009-06-10T18:05:00.002+08:00

Was bored so I went Youtube-ing and found lots of funny,videos of people doing stupid stuff or simply stupid videos of people being stupid.Hahaha!XD

Attention to all Jonas Brothers Fans!Here's a funny and disturbing video of Joe Jonas being completely ridiculous and well. .Freaking disturbing -.-

Here's a video from Smosh.A dedication to all the guys out there who ave no idea how to act on their first date.ENJOY^^

Lastly,another video from Smosh.For those people who lovee to eat burgers!

2009-06-08T19:40:00.003+08:00

OMG! I LOVE HIS HAIR! XD

Hey guys!I'm back!
What I did on saturday?Hmm. .That's a very good question^^
Well,I went out with my orgasm family except for mummy.She could'nt make it ):
I finally met Mira!OMG!Hahaha!I was soo looking forward to it!So for short,we all had a great time.Oh!We eventually met up with Faizal in the end.He's my 'adek' in my 'family'^^
Hopefully we can all go out together as one.
I would like to upload the pics from that day but,I'm lazy!Nyehehehe Xp
Maybe in my next post.Maybe. . Hehehe c:

I'll be going to KL this Saturday till next Tuesday.
I'll be heading to Batam on the following Thursday till the next day(Friday)
I'll be going to Australia on the 4th of July till 13th September.

Wow. .I'm going to miss you guys. . Except for some people. .I'm glad I'll be away from some people but it saddens me that I'll be away from the people that I love and will definetely miss a whole bunch! T.T

Till next time folks.Take care and see ya!^^

update

2009-06-05T21:57:00.004+08:00

Hey guys!Been a long time since I blogged huh?Well sorry guys. . I've been really busy. .I got a few things to share with you,my dear readers c:
I got someone special in my life,someone new and completely different from the rest of those girls I used to go out with.The one thing that surprises me is the fact that I haven met her yet.LOL!My god sister introduced me to her but its not an official.So she's my virtual admirer for now.She saw my photos on my tagged account and boy oh boy,she loved what she saw.Hehe^^ The comments she gave me made me smile my cheeks out XD
When I saw he photo,I was like,Woah. .Mamamiya!Damn. . Wow. . I think I'm in love again. . Hahahaha! XD But I'm not in love,yet ;) But for now,I think I'll just take it slow and not hold my hopes soo high.

Another thing I wanna clear out.Here's a message to my 'brother'
First,you took her away from me.You broke countless of promises.For example,you promised me that you would'nt hit her,but you did anyways.You fucker.I had to find out from the others.I swear I feel like beating the fuck out of you,but that's in the past so I'll turn a blind eye towards that incident. Recently,you took another away from me.When will you start looking for your own girls instead of taking away other peoples girls.WTF is wrong with you huh?And you act as if you did nothing wrong.You are a big jerk man.I regret calling you my brother.Tak guna langsong. .

So yeah.That's about it.Oh and bro,don't you think of taking away the girl I'm currently seeing away,because there is no chance of you doing so.
Bitch. .

wooo

2009-05-01T01:51:00.003+08:00

Hmm. . Where do I start. . Oh! Went to school,ended school,slack for awhile. Went to the gym with Siq. Speaking of that bugger. . After we finished working out,I sang the song, She will be loved by Maroon 5. I thought it did'nt sound that bad. So we joked about Singapore Idol. I asked Siq to judge my voice on a scale of 1 till 10. The fucker gave me a 1 and a half. . I was like -.- But we laughed about it and talked about American Idol on the way home. I got scratched by a mama cat because I got to close to her. Damn bitch! LOL! Kidding. . I got a scar to prove it too. On my index finger. My itchy finger. I call it my itchy finger because it has an itch to. . Urr. . A hunger to. . Wait wait wait.. A desire to. . Umm. . Oh. . That's bad. . NAUGHTY FINGER ^^
Hehehe >.<

So now I'm you-tubing about random stuff. . But I stopped and had a moment. . I stoned at the search bar for almost 5 minute,and than it hit it! Why don't I let my darling Rin serenade me with her angelic voice?! Ahh. . Rin. . She's hot. . Nana K. if you're reading this,let me tell you that Rin is HAWT! She's GORGEOUS! She's SEXY..
Ooooo~
Hahahaha! So I searched Rin on the Rox. Idk about Rox but. . She needs to control her nostrils a little more when she sings. Seriously . .
I have this video footage below as proof. Without any further interruptions,let me introduce my darling Rin and Rox -.- Oh! Rin is on the left and Rox is on the right. FYI to all noobs that are about to watch the video XP

Whatever

2009-04-26T20:57:00.003+08:00

Max Green,bass guitarist from Escaape The Fate^^

Its been a really long time since I posted something. . People are starting to miss me. . Oh well. . Sorry guys for MIA-ing for such a long time. . I just needed time to think things,alot of things. . So I hope you guys understand. . Well,to that person who made me think things,did I mention alot of things? Yeah I did. . Well,I forgive you. . I don't the point of holding a grudge againts you. Its a total waste of my time. Honestly,next time if you wanna 'perangai' with someone,please don't vent all your anger on me just because you see soo much of that certain someone in me. Let me set your mindset straight,I AM NOT THAT PERSON. Got it? That was not a 'good' reason for you to say such a thing to me. WTF? But,what's done is done. We can't possibly go back in time undo that crap? So maybe I'll come down one day. That is a promise. I'll come alone. You don't have to worry about 'THAT CERTAIN SOMEONE'. Ok?

So yeah. .

Enough of all that. Time to move forward. Here's the news of my whereabouts today. I went to IMM with my beloved family to eat at BaliThai. I ate soo much that I felt like a pregnant woman after I was done. My nose was freakin' sensitive. Made me wanna puke all the food back out. But I held in there strong. Went home afterwards and rested for abit because I had to go jamming later at 5. I play bass guys! Woohoo! I was like Max Green at the Jamming Studio which was at Chinese Gardens. Hahaha! Me and friends were practicing for my school talent show,which was in September. Hahaha! No harm in perfecting our performance right? So we played a couple of songs. Here's a list for you guys.

-Your Gurdian Angel

-Hey There Delilah(cover)

-Valentine(My friend's song)

-Lady Marmalade

So yeah. . We jammed from 5 to 6.It was fun. . Next jamming session is in 2 weeks time. Better practice till than. . So yeah. . You guys wanna see Max Green in action? No? I don't give a damn! Hwahwahwa! XD Here's a video of Escape The Fate. Enjoy Bitches! xoxo

Fuck

2009-04-09T23:56:00.006+08:00

Alright!Alright!Alright!I just had to blog about this. .

1st of all,Let me point out to you guys that am not GAY!Alright?I'm just metro-sexual. For all you noobs and losers who don't have a clue what the fuck that means,it means that I care how I look like.I like to be fashionably ready for an outing.Alright?Sheesh. . I love girls man! Did'nt I prove that in the last 2 posts? I bet you morons don't even bother to read the whole god damn post -.- (Diffrent Person)

2nd,it does'nt mean if I have a Vampire Freaks account means I'm emo or Goth. No! I ain't emo or goth! I'm juat your normal,average,straight scene kid alright? So I wear fitting black t-shirts or fitting band t-shirts,or even my jeans are tighter than your sister's jeans does'nt mean I'm emo.Like umm. .HELLO! Is'nt that what scene kids where? Scene kids and Emo kids are 2 very diffrent things. The only things that are similiar is the clothes we wear and how our hair is styled. Alright? (Diffrent Person)

3rd,I have soo fucking moved on.Like. . Hello! Its been like what,urr. . a few months now? Don't you think I've moved on? Huh? Hmm? Jackass. . So yeah. .Why would you even wanna make such a lame accusation? Plus,you brought up all this old,'cut myself',sad stories from the past. What are you trying to do? Make me feel sad? Make me feel guilty? Well,let me tell you this,I'm done being sad,alright? But I still bare the guilt in me. Does this satisfy you? Huh? Is all of this enough to satify that damn,bloated head of yours? (Diffrent Person)

Lastly,I don't need a friend like you. You wanna know why? I have helped you throughout all your pain and suffering an dall I got was a bitch who would backstab me in the end. Its like all my precious time and effort have all gon eto waste. . It really has. . You disgust me. . ~~(Diffrent person)~~
~~Oh! One last thing to all you haters. .~~
~~FUCK YOU! FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE GOD DAMMIT!~~

smosh

2009-04-09T22:44:00.002+08:00
Oh!Oh!Oh!You guys have gotta check out Smosh!They are awesome! XD
Here's a couple of videos from them.Enjoy ^^

If only they me me about sex this way in school

Well,I still love Obama but I hate that other old big,fat baby.Hahaha! XD

Transformers Never Sounded Soo Good

Guy's Who Hit Girls

2009-04-09T21:26:00.004+08:00

Hey there people! I'm here to blog about how I feel about the idea of a guy beating up a girl. Hmm. .Do you people despise guys who would even dare to do such a thing to a girl.I mean. .Hello. .Earth to DUMBO,you do know she's a girl right? Why don't you beat a up a guy your size?Me maybe?Come on than. .I got all the time in the world to beat you up. . Guys like you should just DIE and FUCK OFF and SHOULD CUT OFF THEIR DICKS OFF BECAUSE GUYS LIKE YOU ARE A DISGRACE honestly. . Faggots -.- DO you ladies agree with me? Speak up your mind by SPAMMING my tagboard with your feelings towards this issue. LOL! So I made a video about how I felt about this issue.I could'nt sleep and I was bored so umm. . Do the math (; Here it is but I must warn you,I sound like a gay MAN and my voice is kinda not clear. . So you guys have really gotta amp up the volume on your computer or laptop or notebook or whatever shit thingy you are using to read my blog. Here it is. . But the sad thing is,I can't upload the video. .So it sucks but LET ME TELL YOU GUYS SOMETHING. .I POURED MY HEART OUT IN THAT VIDEO. .AND I SPECIFICALLY SAID THAT I HATE CHRIS BROWN NOW!I DID'NT EVEN LIKE HIM!i guess. .IF HE WAS HERE I'D SMACK HIS HEAD FROM WALL TO WALL! ROFL! XD Well. . Talking about me being gay reminds me soo much of my best bitch,Nurul Mardiah the Jonas Brothers Groopie.Hahahaha!I tell you,she is like a stalker.Its like she knows everything about the Jo Bros.Hahaha!But I still love her (: and I miss her alooooot ): Hahaha!I also remembered something,I have a date with her,a shopping date.Hahaha!Since last year but oh well. .

So I'll end here by saying goodbye.
Give me a good night kiss ladies don't be shy.
You guys are afraid off me I wonder why.
What's that on my face?
A ZIT!
No wonder why ):

Hahhaha!Byee guys and girls.Oh and guys,take care of your woman. .Because they are just awesome!Like Rin from Rin on the Rox on Youtube! XD

hey

2009-04-05T02:26:00.004+08:00

Hey there guys!Long time no post. .Hehe. .Sorry. .I've been busy. .Really busy. .Very busy. .Did I mention that I have been really,very busy?Hahaha!Okk. .Stop it Hakim. .

I'm chatting with my beloved Life Kambing A.K.A Hannah Mariah

For all you noobs who don't have a freaking clue who Hannah Mariah A.K.A Nana(I forgot to mention that),she's the one in green.No guys,not the tall,dark,handsome with a sexy smile one.The chubby one in the centre!Hehehe^^ So yeah. .We're just bitchin' about stuff and catching up.Been a really long time since I've chat-ted with her.Oh well. .I'm going to make full use of this oppurtunity to interrogate her!Sooon,all her secrets will be mine!Hahahaha! XD

I was also youtube-bing for random videos of people singing songs.So I happen to find myself looking at 2 HOT girls singing a cover of 'I Kissed A Girl' by katy perry.Like OH-MY-GOD!
One was Rin and the other was Rox and they call themselves Rin on the Rox.Cool?Hahaha!Yeah Baby!Did I mention to you guys that they are hot?But Rin is the hotter one.She's always on the left of the video.The URL that I'm about to show you is going to show you guys a video that is going to show you guys their video of them singing a cover for 'If I Were A Boy' by Beyonce.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zHPQdQ2fEkU&feature=related

Gogogo and see guys!Rin is hot!Hot!Hot!Hot!Hot!
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! XD

I have been bugging Nana from just now about Rin so yeah.. .Sorry. . I do that for your own good and the fact that I love you.Hahahaha! WTF? XD

Okok. .Its freakin' late and I'm full of energy thanks to Rin.Ahhhh~

Rin. .Rin darling. .Rin-ney~

Wow. .Okok. .I'll end here but before I end,did I mention that Rin is HOT! (:

wow

2009-03-27T23:32:00.005+08:00

Hey there guys!Yesterday was a fun day.You guys wanna know why?Hehehe^^ I went to sentosa with my course-mates!Weeee~ It was soo fun and painful.The reason why I said it was painful is,I rolled down a sand hill with my friend and we clashed and I cut my palm and scratched my chest while my friend just cut his wrist.Hahaha!Painful?Yes.Dizzy?Yes.Laughed like crazy afterwards?Hell yeah! XD
I think I like a girl. .But I'm just too shy to admit who. .
I think I like this girl. .Its a crush from out of the blue. . I think I like this girl. .You girls wanna know who?
It's someone special. .But I can't tell you(; So here's an apology from the heart. . Don't worry. .Its not from my sexy,lil butt XD

What did you guys think?Hahaha!That was freaking random.Oh well. .I can give you 1 lil hint.She thinks my eyes are sexy.Hahaha!She said its because I have long curly eye lashes.Wow. .I can't believe it. .But hey. .What to do. .I was born with sexy eyes.Hehehe^^

Alright,my friend wants to know my secret.The secret to getting a body like mine.The secret is. .

-100 sit-ups a day
-100 push-ups a day
-50 weighted sit-ups a day
-100 crunches a day
-3 sets of 20 reps bench presses a day
That's my secret.Don't believe?You try it on for yourself.Do this for a month non-stop and you can see the results.I mean it. .

Hahaha! I'll end here. .
Till next time guys. Remember to off your lights for an hour tomorrow.Do it because a hippie told you to do it and do it for our beloved planet.Bless mother nature! Have a hippie-licious day guys(:

PEACE! (:

Deeply Empty

2009-03-23T19:40:00.004+08:00
I miss my old hair):

Hey guys.Being hippie rocks!Hehehe^^
Alright. .Here I go. Been exercising alot these past few days.I gotta stay in good shape for all of "you" people (; Hahaha! I've also been hanging out and spending alot of time with friends lately and family.I went out to town with my family to town yesterday.It was fun.We went to a hotel near Fareast and ate Durian delicacies.At first I thought,"OMG!Durian. .I know I shouldn't,but its been such a long time since I ate durian and felt the effects of durian. ."Hahaha!If you all must know,durian gets me in the mood.Hehehe^^
I bought myself a new belt too!Its soo rockin!
Wow. .Durian is like ecstasy to me. .Hahaha!I've also been listening to alot of Secondhand Serenade songs too.heck!I even asked my dada to download both of their albums and put them in my I pod.Hahaha!The songs are just soo heart warming and soo meaningful.Hahaha!I sound soo sensitive. .Ok Hakim. .Stop it. .I had a couple of favorite songs before.I'll list them down for you guys.

-Awake
-Like A Knife
-Maybe
-Pretend

My new favorite song is Stranger.Strange?Oh well. .Its a nice. .Here's the lyrics to the song and the URL to view the song on Youtube.

Lyrics

Turn Around
Turn Around and fix your eye in my direction
So there is a connection
I can't speak
I can't make a sound to somehow capture your attention
I'm staring at perfection
Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are

You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

I'm confident
But I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you
I knew you could see right through me
I saw my life flash right before my very eyes
And I knew just what we'd turn into
I was hopeing that you could see
Take a look at me so you can see

You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

Take a look at me so you can see
How beautiful you are
[x4]

Your beauty seems so far away
I'd have to write a thousand songs to make you comprehend how beautiful you are

I know that I can't make you stay
But I would give my final breathe to make you understand how beautiful you are
Understand how beautiful you are

You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
You are an angel
Making all my dreams come true tonight

You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
You call me a stranger

Url-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mcKq8JCFB-o

I'm sure you guys will love it.Wow. .Imagine me singing this song to a hot,hippie,total stranger(Its a girl.Like Duh-.-)

That's my post.I'll keep you guys updated soon.Byee and have a hippie and happy day (:

empty

2009-03-14T05:47:00.005+08:00

Hmm. . Where do I start. .Yesterday was I really upsy downsy day.Firstly,this week does'nt suck that bad.Secondly,I am currently missing someone soo much till I cried.Lastly,I did something really freaky awkward with my best bitch.If she's readng this,she'd be laughing her ass off and say O-M-G!Hahahaha!But seriously,to add it all up,this week kinda sucked a lil. .

Went to school like usual,met up with Alip,Rizal and Naufal at the MRT station,finnished school at 12,went to the canteen to grab a quick bite and minggled around for awhile,traded PE shirts with a girl name Wan Ting( her shirt size was M and mind was S. Oh!She's hot(: ),went for prayers,afterwards went to Amin's place to change clothes.Had to wait for the faggot to shower and get dressed before going for his CSO.After he went off,I slacked around Nuhyool's block with Nabil,Keisyah,Dickie,Zainul,Pet and Nuhyool.While waiting for Amin to return from his CSO,the rest of us played truth or dare.It was fun.Hehehe^^

Everyone had to do stupid things either to the same sex or the opposite sex.I only enjoyed the opposite sex so that proved that Im not gay!Wooohooo!But Pet is,The reason is,Dickie dared him to go to the middle of the road and shout I'M GAY!

Idiot-.- Hahahahaha! XD

When Amin came back from his CSO,we headed to Lot 1 to eat but unfortunately,I had no money,so I was starving al the way.When we reached Lot 1,I saw my old brother.Wr chatted for awhile and afterwards I went back with the rest,but before I could,I saw my bestest bitch(Nurul Mardiah).I miss her soo much!Gaaaah!She was her cousin,I think >.<

We chatted for awhile and I introduced myself to the girl who I think was her cousin.She was kinda cute^^ Hehehe. .And just when things were'nt good enough,I saw Faree and Maisarah.I just gave them a smile and I was off.Amin and the rest finally decided where to eat.They wanted to buy the 2 dollar Nasi Lemak at Ananas Cafe.I was like. .Dood. .We went in than now we have to go out again. .Nice-.-

As if that was'nt bad enough,they could'nt decid whether they should walk or take the bus back.I was seriousy ticked off by than.When they decided to walk,I was the first to walk away from Lot 1.I don't know why,I was feeling sad and had to listen to the song like a knife by secondhand seranade all the way to the place where we were slacking.I kept telling mysef I missed her almost all the way.I even cried half-way.Sigh. .I don't know what's wrong with me. .I did'nt even turn back to see if Amin and the rest were following me or not.I just felt that I need some alone time. .Sigh. .I'll end my post here by saying this.I'm sorry for all the stupid things I've done.Maybe things would have worked out perfectly if I had'nt done those stupid things. I'd give my heart to you. .

And 1 last random comment. .

I KISSED A GIRL AND I LIKED IT! XD

Tears of Confusion

2009-03-04T21:42:00.003+08:00

I feel like crying myself to death. .I wish I could cry out blood for all you people to see. .If you guys think I'm creepy,than you guys can just fuck off. .I don't give a damn right now. . If I don't interact with you guys and I'm 'emo-ing' or whatever fuck you guys call it in one corner,just leave me alone,don't bother asking if I'm okay because I'm obviously not okay. .Alright?
If you guys happen to see me at town or anywhere,don't forget to say hi.I may not say hi back,but I'll acknowledge your greeting with a smile.I'll hide behind my 'smiles' and my 'laughter' for the moment.If you guys are truly my friends,than you can see the difference.Don't worry guys,I don't want to bother you guys with my problems.Just go about your business and I'll go about with mind. .But if you guys insists on helping me,than I'll gladly welcome you with open arms.Alright. .That's about it for that topic.

Next is a random topic.
I just realized that I'm like a toy boy to almost all of my ex's.Its like this,girlfriend gets a new toy.Plays with it,cares for it,loves it to death than when a better toy comes up,she leaves the old toy for the new one.I mean,damn. .Heartless bitches. .Sooo suck man. . I should play safe next time.Find a girl who plays a fair role in the relationship.I treat her to dinner than she can suprise me with a dinner of her own the next time we go out or when I hangout at her place.
Find a girl that understands me to the extend that she can tell what's my next move.
Find a girl that is faithfull till the end.
Find a matured thinking girl.
Find a girl who has the same whacky attitude I do.
Find a girl who practically shared all her serious problems with me because she knows I could'nt be bothered with small childish problems which lead to another small childish problem.Unless she needs help in picking out what to wear for our date(:
Find a girl who's parents would love me to death.

Wow. .I wish there was a girl like that. .I'm sure there is,but its just soo rare to find girls like that.Most girls just wanna have 'fun' -.-
Hahaha. .(sacarstic laughter)

Oh yeah!One last thing!Advice to all you guys,don't pass your girl's number to your friend,because honestly,you'll get hooked in a love triangle than you can tell the girl to keep her love lockdown and you can be like me!Sad and depressed. .
I hope I have a hippie-licious dream later^^
Can't wait to go to sleep,but the thing is,I am finding it soo hard to sleep. .You guys know why. .Oh well. .I'll have panda eyes in the morning than. .
If anyone has a problem with this post,bitch about it on my taggy.

Byee and be hippie XD

The wind cries mary

2009-02-28T14:31:00.003+08:00
Yeah man!That's what I'm talking about.Feeling great!I know..You guys must think I'm wierd..But hey,what's the point of being sad?Just be happy!Be hippie! (:

Hahaha! xp I've been checking out hippie pictures on photobucket and I find most of them cute(:
But there were some posers uploading pictures of themselves.Idiots -.- What's worst than a wanker is a poser.Both of them actually have the same meanings but hey,wanker sounds waaaay cooler than poser.LOL! >.<
So here I am,I haven shower yet because I just woke up like,thirty minutes ago.Hahaha!I suddenly have the urge to blog.I hope I don't become a blog-a-holic.Hahaha!^^
I'll end here.I wanna shower and get squeeky clean(:
Byee and tc!
xoxoxo

My Mnd Is Blank

2009-02-28T02:10:00.004+08:00
I seriously don't get it. .
I don't kno what to do. .
I can't pretend to be happy all the time. . Till when must I stop pretending?
Well,you've made your decision.So I guess I'll just respect it and go with the flow. .
Oh by the way,that's not my ring.
But enough of this emo crap. .

How to be hippie if I'm sad all the time.Sheesh -.-
So let's change the topic.I went to school like normal.After prayers,hang around with MinMin and Alep.Played a few games of poker.I was being such a pain in the ass while playing poker.Everytime someone puts a card bigger than mine,I'll make the owl sound,the'flash' sound or I'll even say."I tell my mother than you know.My mother is mother nature you know!" XD
But the funniest part was when we were looking for a place to hang out.I tried being a hippie.I hugged trees,I kissed their leaves,I talked to them,I flirted with them and the funniest of all is when I asked them if they wanted to smoke marijuana with me xp

Well, had to do something right?Oh yeah!Ayesha said that she missed me and is being totally random.Hahaha!Oh well. . What to do?Tell her I miss her too la idiots!Sheesh -.- But seriously, was'nt flirting around with her,because to be honest,I miss her. . So yeah. .

Sweeeeet

2009-02-20T22:23:00.003+08:00

This week has been really stressfull..First of all,I have lifeguard training on Tuesday,Thursday and Saturday everyweek!Grrr..Worst still,it starts at 8pm,which means the water is damn cold.If the water is warm,than that means its like totally time to get out of the water or move away from the warm area because obviously someone peed.Eww..That's gross..

I guess Saturday's the only day I get to excercise like crazy because I have cross country training in the morning till noonand like I mentioned earlier,I have lifeguard training at night and to make matters worst,its at Clementi -.-

Wow...But lucky for me,I have someone to accompany me after my lifeguard training.Yay!I don't have to go home alone! XD I am soo lucky...Like seriously...The person that's gonna accompany me is..Umm..You know what..I'm just gonna say that the person is a girl (: I still can't tell you guys who the hell she is.If you guys know than keepit to yourself you sons of bitches!LOL!Just kidding (:

So tommorow's plan is:

-wake up at 7.30

-leave by 7.50

-meet Amin at yew tee at 8

-reach school by 8.30

-start cross country training by 8.45

-finnish training by 12 plus to 1 plus

-slack around for awhile till 6 plus

-go home shower,change clothes,packmy lifeguard stuff

-leave house by 7.30

-reach clementi swimming complex by 8

-start training by 8.05

-end at around 10 plus(cpr training after swimming)

-go home by 11 plus

-play guitar hero till the next day

-go to the gym at noon

Wow..I have a busy scedule..Oh btw,I saw Faree in the bus just now after finnished slacking with Pet and Kaisyah.She still looks the same and her attitude is just asI remembered and the astonishing thing is,she remembers me!So we talked in the bus and I can't believe how much I've missed out.Hahaha!

Lastly...I just wanna say that,I wanna be Hippie!I wanna hug trees and tell them how much I love and appreciate them!I wanna tie myself to a tree and tell the government to stop deforestation!I wanna smoke ganja -.- I wanna dress like a hippie!Love sex,drugs and peace!Everyne is equal!Hahaha!Yeah..When I become a hippie,my girlfriend and I are gonna make out in the garden like these 2 hippie lovers

Ahhh...I can't wait!Wooohooo!Hippie look,her I come! XD

LOVE

2009-02-14T16:31:00.002+08:00
This post is about the girl who I did'nt expect to fall for (:

-Well..We did'nt talk that much
-We had a few awkward momments
-We had a few ups and downs but we eventually resolved them peacefully
-We almost have the same interests
-We have diffrent styles
-She's abit slow,caring,lovable and damn friendly
-Lastly,I care for her alot.
-I plan to take her out to a romantic candlelight dinner(;

Yeap,that's a lil something about her.Hahaha!I bet Nuhyooooool is reading this and she's aww-ing right now.Hahaha!

Don't worry guys,its not Nuhyooooool.

So that's about it.Hope you guys enjoyed reading ths.
Byeeee(:

xoxoxo

-.-

2009-02-08T21:06:00.002+08:00
Hey guys!Been a looooong time since I blogged,so I hope I did'nt forget how to write my posts.
Hahahaha! XD

Been busy with school and friends for the past few weeks but I'm main;y busy with school,soo that means I've been going to school to study! ^^ Un believeble right?Hahaha!Well face it guys,I'm a changed young man.I want to study study study!Hahaha!But let's face,I can't always be studying right?So i'll add a pinch of fun in my scedule (:

So valentine's day is next week but I can't celebrate it because my close friend is getting married on that day.Aww...Getting hitched on valentine's day.That's soooo sweeeet! ^^
So I must appolgize to both of my valentine's day dates.I know..I'm greedy,one is not enough.Haha!The first valentine date is non other than my 'sister' Nurul Fateha and the second one is Fatin Kaisyah Nadia.Yeapyeapyeap.I have good taste :p Hahaha!I'm soo proud of myself -.-

So you guys can be lesbos on valentine's day and imagine that I'm one of you.Hahaha!Otherwise,if I were able to go out on valentine's day,it'd be a threesome XD
That seriously sounds soo wrong.

So I would like to say to those girls that haven been asked by a guy to be their valentine's day date,don't worry ladies.You guys are just too hot to be asked and the guys all melt at the very sight of you or you're just plain creepy or have a bad history.I sound bad.Well you ladies can just emphersis on the hot and melting at the very sight of you part.Hehehe ^^

So I'm here to end this post by saying,I LOOOOOVE YOOOOOUUUU NURUL AND KAISYAH!HAHAHA!But hey,don't start thinking that I love the other one more than you.Hahaha! XP

That's my post.Hope you guys enjoyed reading it (:
Byee and take care!
XOXO

weeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-01-18T02:37:00.016+08:00
Now I wanna blog about the people that I miss alooooooooooooooooooooooooooot ):
Here they are ladies and gentlemen.

Elly(Elly-phant XD) She makes the lamest jokes that make me laugh :pAly(One of the people that I'd want by my side when I'm feeling bad)

Hudah(She took this pic personally for me.Now she's MIA.I MISS MY BESTFRIEND)

From right to left-Nuhyool,Sheree,Amira,Nuri,Me,Elly
Nuhyool has been there for me through thick and thin.No matter what,I can always count on her for advice.
Sheree has lead me to some of my most fun times of my life.For example,wild wild wet,sec 2 class chalet and nuhyool's bday.She's a fun girl to be with.
Amirah has always been the one who would make everyone laugh their ass off.She would make those silly faces and deep voices that would surely make Simon Cowle from American Idol laugh(its very hard to make him laugh)
Nuri has always been the one who would always accompany me during the june holidays and talk about our problems.We share problems and we help eachother to resolve them.She's my so called bestie.She would immatate every stupid thing I do and get shocked easily(Try screaming all off a sudden and see how she reacts)

From left-Me,Hannah Maria and Euise

Hannah has always been one of the girls that I turn to for relationship problems.She gives some of the best advice,she cracks the best jokes,she was my bestfriend and we used to always talk about our latest exploits with our guy(for her) or girl(for me) hehehe...She's the best..I just wished we did'nt had that fight.I'm sorry Hannah.I really am.Will you ever forgive me?I just want things to go back to the way it was...
Euise is one of the biggest fans of Arsenal I have ever met..You disrespect Arsenal,you disrespect her and you don't want to disrespect her.Believe me..She has a huge range of vulgarites,some of them can be only heard in the movies.Hahaha!But I miss her and her smartmouth.LOL!

From left-Maisarah,Faree,Nurul

Hmm..Maisarah..Oh yeah!She's one of the people who I can approach to if I had problems with my family.She tells jokes that may seem funny to her,we all start laughing but not at the jokes,at her.Hahaha!Yeah..I miss that bitch..
Faree has been involved in most of my 2008.She can be nice,kind and sweet at times but she can also be ruthless as hell,sacarstic and umm..what's that word..Nevermind..Forget about it.But listen up guy's...Don't think of her as the bitch who dumped me.You guys don't know the whole storey soo quit talking crap about her.So yeah..She's awesome.I thought you mati Faree (;
Nurul has been one of the most bitchiest girls I have ever met.But we get along like pancakes and maple syrup.Mmmm..Yummy..She insists that I'm gay because every bitch needs a gay best friend.So technically I'm her gay bestfriend.Hahaha!

From left-Mathew,Nick

Mathew is one of the few people I know that umm..is metro-sexual like me.Hahaha!Yeap..We care what we wear and how we look.Hehe..He also can give great advice about girls,but as you all know,U give better.Hahaha!
From what Faree keeps telling me,Nick likes to create cartoon porn or something like that.He likes to imagine stuff happening between me and Faree in 2008.Hahhaa!Sick bastard.He's one of the most hyperactive people I know,always the first to do a stupid act that would surely make people laugh.IMY BRO!

Azah and Me

Azah and me are really close.But to be honest,she's a very complicated girl.She's emotional,fun,happy at times and funny.I always have to cheer her upor else she'd do something stupid to herself.Right baybeh?Hahaha!She's a fun kid and a great friend.

I think that's all of them.If anyone of you people are reading this,tell what you think or you could blog about what you think at your blog.

I better sleep now..Its really late..Byeee and gdnight my fellow readers!

xoxoxo

lalala

2009-01-18T00:13:00.007+08:00
This post is for my dearest Alycia and all my sayang-sayangs.

Alritey than...Hmm..Wonder what should I blog about..
Oh!Now I know!

Well..For starters..I appologize to all my fellow readers for not updating for soo long.So yeah..

I had to cut my hair guys!Hahaha!Now my hair is like Rihanna.Wow...Hahaha!Too bad I don't have a banging body like her.Hahaha!WTF am I talking about?
Anyways...Here's a pic of me and my new hair -.-

I look like a freakin typical matrep!Ahhh!Sad you know...Lets go back in time and see how I 'transformed'.

I was botak originally but this was after 3 months.

5 Months after botak

9 Months after botak(Someone's favourite pic)

But in the end..I had to cut it all off..Shit..Stupid...So yeah..Besides on how I look like currently,I'm missing alot of people...But I miss one person the most.Cannot tell,later you guys would say,"Sialah Bayo!Ko rindu orang tu?Kimak kau..Takya bodoh!Buang masa je ko rindu org sial tu!"

Come on guys...Be nice...I can miss whoever the hell I wanna miss!Bitches -.-
So yeah..I also wrote a song.It kinda came up to my mind randomly so here it is.

I...
I did'nt realise...
How much I felt about you...
I...
I don't know what to do....
I know that I can't simply tell you...
That I love you...

Now I know what I have to do
To show my feelings towards you
It may take some time but it'll sound soomuch better than
I-LOVE-YOU

It may sound abit awkward
But at least I'm being straight forward
Than those guys who plan to busted you
What I'm going to tell you it's all true

You...
You're the apple of my eye...
You must be an angel that dropped from the sky...

I...
I must be freaking you out...
There's only one thing you could do...
Go ahead and...
SHOUT!

Shout out 'YES I FEEL THE SAME WAY TOO!
BUT I JUST DID'NT KNOW HOW TO TELL YOU!
NOW THAT YOU TOLD ME I BELIEVE ITS TRUE!
AND I-LOVE-YOU-TOO!'

Here...
Is where the storey begins...
I just wanna hold your hand...
And I never want this momment to...
End...

Well..That's my song guys...And that's the last thing I'm gonna blog about today.So until next time.Byeeee!

xoxoxoxoxo

love

2009-01-07T21:44:00.007+08:00

Alright..I know that its been awhile since last update my blog and at last!After all these months, finally update.LOL!So yeah...I know its too late and stuff but,happy new year!Hahaha!Yeah..I did'nt go for the countdown..Sad sey..Hahaha!So I was stuck at home and watched wth I was missing.When they started to countdown I was shouting withe the crowd.LOL!Woohoooo!New Year!But I suddenly had a bad feeling,a sad one...2008 was one of my best and a pinch of bad year ever in my life.Hahaha!Yeah..Not soo bad I guess.Could have gotten worse but,in the end it was not soo bad.Or so I thought.

Here's a sumary o my 2008

2008 I....

-fell in love

-had a stressfull time

-became sad and depressed

-changed from an indie boy to an emo boy

-changed from a typical matrep to decent scene kid

-had fights with a couple of my dearest friends

-lost a few friends

-lost my bestfriend

-gained a few new friends

-had my weekend ruined

-had one of the best holiday trips ruined

-had one of the holiday breaks ruined

-felt like a fool for awhile

-imagined i had 2 kids :D

-became rich for a month (hari raya)

-rebonded my hair

-got beat up alot of times just for doing the right thing or for no good reason at all

-skipped alot of my lessons :p

-cried like i never cried before

-thought of killing myself more often

-gained a newfound respect for the opposite sex

-met a couple of hot aussie babes (:

-realised how important religion is

-realised I'm not who I want to be.I'm what you want me to be (Don't get it?Its ok.)

-discovered how hard it was to let someone I love soo much go

-have an interest in fashion

-realised that I can't always get what I want

-realised that I can't always be the nice guy

-went to three diffrent countries for my holiday

-got hit up by a gay guy while on holiday in one of the countries

-kept seeing the number 18 while I was on holiday at one of the countries(what are you trying to tell me god.It can't be a coincidence)

Alrightey than.Its a long list so I hope I did'nt bore you,my fellow readers.

Ok...Awhile ago I had a chat with Faree.I saw a guy's pic on her dp.So I was curious.So I ask her who the guy was.She said it was her boyfriend.I was like,WHAT?!Serious keper?

Afterwards,we chatted seperti biase.Than she said she had to tell me something.She said...Umm...She said...How do I put this in a nice way...

THE GUY WAS'NT HER BOYFRIEND!HAHAHAHA!

I got punk'd....Damn..I asked how many people she fooled,she said only me.Wow!I feel sooooo 'honoured'.LOL! -.-

Hahahaha!Well..I gtg now.I wanna watch movie and do some thinking.Byeee!Thanks for reading (:

Oh yea!One last thing!I thought you mati Faree (;

I could'nt sleep

2008-12-05T20:44:00.002+08:00
three sleepless nights
this isn't how it's supposed to be
but you're so good at taking your time
to come back to me
I will wait for you forever
if you would just ask me
I thought that I could change you
but you changed mebut it doesn't feel right
holding someone else's hand
together on phone line
sand living at two opposite end
it scares me to think that you could find takers
other than me and better than me
but your head is elsewhere
and I'm talking enough for both of us
when will you see it's not so easy for me
you careless and whispere
dinsulting and bruising
and I thought that you said
things were improving
these laces are untied
but my feet are walking away(I fall from your eyes. Your eyes I trusted. You said forever)
I never thought you could say these words
is this really happening(don't say that we can still be friends)
erase my name from this page
how can you take all these days(what is inside me, what have I done)
and throw them away,(is this the only way that you will notice me)
as I sit here waiting for you(dead words for closed ears, all this is sung for you)
I stay up nights(if you are still pretending this is what's right)
until stars leave the sky(why can you look at me can you only see)
knowing what my dreams can take away(sides, your side, can take away)
walk away from me
this night is done

2008-12-03T06:29:00.002+08:00
Hello!Guese what my fellow bloggers!I'm lazy to update what happened during the passed few days.So yeah..They will remain a mystery.Ooooo~
So umm..Yesterday was boring..Did'nt go out at all..Except out to the backyard,where me and my sister played catch.Hahaha!The lil rascal threw one directly to my pride and joy.Oww..It burns!LOL!So I was holding my lil pride and joy almost for the rest of the day.Hahaha!Watched two DVDs yesterday,Get Smart and a wrestling show which I'm not familiar of.LOL!
Get smart was fun and stupid,not to mention LAME!Haahah!Well..It made me forget about the pain,that is,till the wrestling show was switched on.Ouch..That must have hurt..Hahaha!

Lights off at 12midnight.I could'nt sleep.Till now I can't sleep.I tried singing myself to sleep.I tried punching myself in the face in hoping of knocking myself out.LOL!I was desperate.So in the end I took out my MP4,played all the folders in my MP4 and put it on loudspeaker.Lalala!Songs passed,folders were played and I still could'nt sleep.Songs from The Used played and I felt sad for awhile.Songs from Simple Plan played and I laughed for awhile.Songs from Secondhand Seranade played and that really brought me down.I was sobbing for awhile.LOL!There was just one song that hit me the hardest,so I just lay my head on the sofa,leaned back,took a deep breathe and let the tears flow.But the artist that really made my night a good one was none other than Katy Perry!LOL!I love her(: Hahahaha!Well..So here I am,with swollen eyes from the crying..Sigh..I'll get over it...So I decided to make a bold attempt to scene my hair.I could'nt find the hairspray so I just used mousse.It kinda did the trick.I was sad and bored.So do the math.Hahaha!YAY!I found somethingelse to do when I'm sad! XD

So yeah.Here I am..its 7.45am(Aussie Time) and I'm staring infront of the computer,blogging and nothingelse to do...Well..I better bath.Phew!Stank-keh! :X

Byeee!I'll end here now.

UPDATE

2008-11-30T22:13:00.002+08:00
Friday
I went to my friday prayers taht day.Good right?Hahaha!Bayo is a changed person.I haven been smoking.I've been doing aloooot of praying.I've not been smoking ever since I came here.I feel like I don't need to smoke anymore.I've not felt the temptation to smoke.So yeah..I think I got what I wanted.So yeah..I think Australia really changed me for the better..So back to the imam.He talked about women and the things we men should and should'nt do.We should respect them,cherish them,take good care of them,protect them.We should'nt hurt them in anyway.That includes physical,emotional and phycological.I sincerely apologise to all the women,whether you are my mum,sister,relatives,ex lovers or friends..I apologies.I hope you guys forgive me.I really do.Okk den. I stop here.Gotta off the com now.Byee.I'll update Saturday later when I wake up.Byeee.

Fun Aussi Day

2008-11-28T19:18:00.003+08:00
Wow!I had fun yesterday.Thanks to my family.Hahaha!Well..My uncle bought me a fedora hat from cotton on an a pair of black and white converse shoes.Hehehe.I was'nt suppose to buy anything from Australia because I spent like alot on my Cultural Night outfit in Hong Kong.Remember that trip guys?Hahaha!Great trip..I really enjoyed myself there,looking for your souveniers.LOL!You see guys!All of the gifts are sincere and came from the heart(:
After awhile at the shopping mall that's called Carosel(an Aussie version of Vivo),I walked around the mall and I got myself in a Surf/Skate shop.This is how the storey began.

I was minding my own buisness walking around,checking out the hoodies in the shop(they have great looking hoodies there) when I caught a hot/sweet/cute Aussie babe eyeing on me.As soon as I turned around to look at her,she blushed and she smiled at me.Of course I smiled at her back and we just stared at eachother for about 5 minutes.Her eyes were soo..Wow..Sweet girl.But her boss had to ruin our momment.So I went out to get my mum.

Me-Mama!Follow me now!
Mama-Where to?
Me-Follow me into that shop(:
Mama-I'm not buying anything for you there you know!
Me-Don't worry mum.I just wanna show you this girl that I like :D
Mama-Why did'nt you tell me so?!Let's go!
Me-XD

My mum followed me into the shop.I was glad because the girl smiled at me again(: Hahaha!But I became embarressed because my mum asked her to take a picture with me.

Mama-Can you please take a picture with my son?He would like to show off to his friends in Singapore.
Aussie Babe-Umm..
Me-Umm..Mum..
Aussie-Ok sure:)
Me-O.O

So we took the picture in the end.Gosh..I can't stop looking at the picture.So I guese that the dare is over right Mean?Hahaha!Don't worry..I'll post the picture soon.Ohohoh!Ika!I told her about you too.So yeah(:

You got me speechless.Over the edge and just breathless.
I never thought that I'd catch this lovebug again.

Hahaha!Yeah...But hey..Let's get down to buisness here..

Of course I still want us to be friends.You forgot isit..Here are the initials..IDWTLY ):
Remember now?Sigh..I'll text you when I come home.Please don't repeat June again.Promise me you won't..Oh yeah..Its up to you now who you wanna believe..I have tried soo hard to convince you.I guese I did'nt try hard enough..Its up to you now..Btw..Mean can't wait for us to go out together.The 3 of us.LOL!Ok than..Try to figure out the initials..Enjoy the rest of your holiday.

Byeee.

What makes you think its about you?

2008-11-25T17:44:00.006+08:00
You assume too much

FIRST OF ALL,
must everything I blog about me being emotional about the opposite sex be you?For goodness sake..Its not you..Its about my ex.Can't I randomly miss her?Wanna write about you for what?Nothing better to do?You did'nt even ask WTF i was blogging about.Like I said before,you assume too much.Here's a storey for you.

My ex-Halina
Me-Myself
Her adik angkat-Fitri

Its gonna be a short storey so freakin pay attention.These are the facts.
Me and my ex,we were celebrating our 6 months.Than she had that look on her face.That uneasy look.I asked her.

Me-You,what's wrong?
Ex-Umm...
Me-Just tell me.You know you can tell me anything
Ex-I'm..Umm..You understand that what I'm going to tell you may break you're heart.
Me-Umm..Ok than.Tell me.I want to know dear.
Ex-My feelings..Umm..Their not there for you anymore..You see..I've been secretely contacting my adik angkat.
Me-So..Umm..That's it?You just contact your adik angkat.What's wrong with that?
Ex-I also went out with him and did..Stuff with him..
Me-Ohh..Like what we did?
Ex-Yeah..Like what we did...I've fallen for him sadly...You..I'm sorry..
Me-....
Ex-You?I know its alot to take in but please..Just try to let me go..
Me-Ohh..Ok..Wait..Your adek angkat 13 right?
Ex-Yeah..
Me-Oh..Umm..Ok than..Bye..Don't bother texting me or asking about my whereabouts anymore..
Ex-I'll come back to you when all of this is over.I promise.
Me-Ok...Lets hope that you do come back..I love you..I really do..

Well..That's the storey.If you think that cultural night incident has scarred your memory..Try mine..I fuckin remembered the whole conversation.You think that cultural night incident was on purpose?I thought I explained to myself already..I did'nt see you.Mathew said that you guys went off first.Boys will always be boys..Always trying to impress one another..That's what I tried to do..Did'nt mean to hurt you...Sorry..Been awhile since I said that..Goddammit I said I was sorry!I still am sorry!Now that you mention about the things I did..Lets see what you did..Nah..I not soo busted wanna ruin your 'image'.Right?I guese whatever bad things you did to me will forever be a mystery..I'm sorry for all the bad things I did to you..I'm sorry for being a waste of your time..Sorry for being a USELESS piece of garbage that's always in your way..I'm sorry ok..You don't want to forgive me..Than..I won't force you..Its all up to you...

I miss the old days...Sigh..I really do..Well..Can't have everything right?Sorry for the misunderstanding..You don't need me to ruin your holidays anymore..Enjoy the rest of it..Bye..

Quiz

2008-11-24T16:18:00.004+08:00
Alamak..Kena tagg to do this quiz.Hahahha!Well..Here goes!

Technology

What is your wallpaper on your computer?Shut that bitch up(:
How many television do you have in your house?I have 4
Are you right-handed or left handed?Right baby(;
Have you ever had anything removed from your body?Umm..Snot!LOL!
What is the last item you lifted?A cup of tea
Have you ever been knocked down?Yes):

BULLSHITOLOGY

If it were possible,would you want to know the day that you will die??Yes.So that I can enjoy my life to the fullest till that day comes.
If you could change your name,what would you change it to?Chuck Bass XD
What colour would you think looks best on you?Black
Have you ever swallowed a non-food item?Lip Stud

DAREOLOGY

Would you kiss a member of a same sex for $100?If I'm desparate..Yes
Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut of for $200,000?If cut,you mean chopped off,then NONONONO baby):
Would you never blog again for $50,000?Nooooo!I won't give up the one thing that I can express my feelings to.
Would you posed naked in a magazine for $250,000?You think you can handle me?(;
Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?Yes.I've done it before.Easy money.
Would you,without fear of punishment,take a human life for $1,000,000?Noooooooooooo!

Dumbology

What is in your left pocket?Gum wrapper
Is napoleon dymainte actually a good film?Umm..Never hurt of it.But the name is DYNOMIGHT!:P
Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?Carpet.I love rolling all over it(:
Do you sit or stand in the shower?I lay down o.O
How many pairs of flip-flops did you own?1.
Last body who texted you?Azah
Last person who called you?Nobody called me before I left..Sad siaaa..Bastards(Kidding)
Person you hugged?A HOT Aussie beach babe XDDDDDD

Favouritology

Number?13
Season?Summer and Spring

Currentology

Missing someone?Kinda
Mood?Confused
Listening to?Katy Perry-Hot and Cold
Watching?Hindustan
Worrying about?Will people not layan me when I get back from Australia.I know a few who will):
Wearing?Fitting black top,faded blue jeans,black studded belt,geek specs and sex bands.

Randomology

First place you went this morning?Umm...Kitchen
What can you not wait to do?I can't wait to scene my hair!
Do you smile often?Most of the time
Are you a friendly person?Yes I am(:

Now that you answer all the questions,list three other people to complete this quiz.

I pick...
1.Ali
2.Siq
3.Azah

I went to the beach yesterday

2008-11-24T14:21:00.004+08:00
I went to the beach yesterday.It was'nt as hot as I thought it was.It was cold and sunny and freakin windy.Hahaha!I wore my shawl there.Hahaha!I looked like a japanese,with my hair and my outfit.Hahaha!There were loooots of hot beach babes in their bikini.I should be happy,but I was'nt.Suprisingly,I had a random thought of us.Yes..You'd be shocked.But its random and probally wear off soon.

Alright,you'd love to hear this Mean(:
Afterwhile,a group of HOT Aussie beach babes approach me.At first their intention was to complement how I looked,but after they saw the look on my face,they knew that something was stressing me out.So i told them this.

I realised that I was'nt her type.
I realised that I was'nt good enough for her
I realised that I let myself fall soo deep for her
I realised that I was I was just another one of her guys
I realised that we were not meant for eachother
I realised that I lost to someone waaaaaaaay younger than me.( The asked how old was I.I answered 16.They did'nt believe.Then they said I was too hot to be 16.Hahaha!I'm sure you're loving this part Mean,but there's more(; )
I realised that she was just saying those stuff just to make me feel happy.
I realised that there is a small chance that she even meant what you said.
I realised that I'm really missing her.
I realised that I seriously have gotta move on.
I realised that she's probally not coming back after all.
I realised that I do regret what I did for almost a year .
I realised that I don't wanna lose her .
I realised that we were better of as friends .
I realised that I'm all alone now .
I realised that I don't need her to survive.
I realised that I'm better off without her.

After I told them this,they gave me that sad look.Aww...Some were reduced to tears and some just stone at my face.Hahaha!Well..All of them hugged me one by one in the end.Hahaha!I told you that you'd like it Mean.Held them by the waist too(: Oh yeah..Mean..I did'nt kiss them on the cheek.They kissed me on the cheek.So does that count?Hahaha!

Moral of the storey.Australian girls are waaaaaaaay better than Singaporean girls.Hahaha!They are nice,sweet,HOT,understanding,cool and open people.At least they open in a good way siaaa..Hahaha!At least they bother to ask whats wrong,unlike in Singapore,most people would just look at you one kind and think,'What is wrong with that emo kid?'
Hahaha!Its true..I've had that once..

No wonder my mum asked me to marry an Aussie.Hahaha!I think I will.But lets see if I can stick to that idea once I go to France.Hahaha!Bon'jour(:
I'll stop here now.Byeeee.

PS:Australia Rock! XDDDDD

Australia Rocks!

2008-11-22T18:42:00.006+08:00
Hello mate!
I've only been in Australia for a day and I caught the accent already.LOL!No lah..Kidding..People would miss the way I talk.I know one person who will miss me saying 'siiaaaalsss'(: My blood brother's cousin,Asuatika.She's the girl that's been bullying me in class.Hahaha!Well...She was there for me when I needed her.So I'm lucky to have a friend like her.Its just my luck.Hahaha!She was actually suppose to meet me before I went off to Australia.But she could'nt sadly she could'nt turn up because she had to take care of her niece.I'm going to meet Aussie babe and she's taking care of 'Oww-see'(Her Niece) Cute baby(: Don't worry Ika..I understand.
Luckily my blood brother was there.So we spent time together before I went off to the airport and took the plane to Australia.My flight was at 3.30pm.Otw up to the plane,I saw a cute girl.She was hot.Hahaha!But she was taken.Congrats to her guy.Lucky bastard -.-

When I thought my day could'nt get any worse,it got a whole lot better.There was an even cuter girl on the plane,and to make it a looooot better,she was one of the air stewardess.Hahaha!It was like heaven on the plane.Just a lil piece of heaven but it was worth the wait for the plane to land.Gosh..It took like,umm...Almost 4 hours for the plane to reach Australia.Hahaha!Loooooong siiiiaaaaalssss!My Aunt and Uncle fetched us(me and family) from the airport and brought us back to their place.They live in a community like the show Desperate Housewives.I don't know how to spell it but I know it starts with the letter 'S' and ends with a 'burb'.Hahaha!Yeah..Its really cool.I loike it alooot.But I love the girls here.LOL!Its true guys..Their hot!

Alright..Let me cut to the chase.Revealing outfits suits the Aussie babes better than Singaporean babes because its like the Aussie's culture and for Singaporean babes,its like sending a message to the opposite sex that their available or their bound to give you a good time if you know what I mean guys.Maybe some Singaporean girls can work it,but not that many...

Hahaha!Well..Bottom line is...Australia is awesome!Hahaha!Yeah..Can't wait to go to the beach...Wait for me my hot Aussie beach babes!Hahha!Alright..I'll end here for now.I'll be sure to update you guys soon and don't worry Mean,I'll upload the pics that I took in my blog soon.Byee and tc guys!

Fieldtrip(:

2008-11-20T22:41:00.007+08:00
Wow..What a day..Mum woke me up at 12 noon..I was half awake..My mum started to scream at me,telling me to wake up.After awhile,she gave up.Hahaha!I woke up eventually,because I could'nt take her screaming anymore..Early2 wanna scream..Haiyoyo..Mad woman(kidding).I love my mama!^^

At around 1.10 I made my move to my commonwealth to meet my friend,Azah.I asked her to accompany me to buy The Used band t-shirt.So we made our move to Peninsula.I was a noob..Hahaha!It has been awhile since I've been there.So I totally forgot..She drag me into the hotel to make a fool out of me-.- Paisei sia...LOL!An emo kid and a metalhead in a hotel..There's bound to be trouble.Hahaha!Well..We eventually got into the shopping mall.We walked like tourists in a lost jungle.Just looking for that perfect shop.Hahaha!We did stumble onto one shop.It's called,*drumroll* LA VANITA!LOL!Azah spotted that shop.Hahaha!Cool shit man.We laughed our asses off,and we were on the escalator when the incident happend.So we eventually got to the shop,picked out the new ban-tsirt of the used.Goddam its nice.Hahaha!Azah picked it out for me(: Than all of a sudden,she said that she wanna sponsor me another one.I was soo happy!I picked out a Silverstien band t-shirt.Azah loved the shirt!Hahaha!What a great friend I have..A friend that just loves to sponsor me stuff.Idk why..Hahaha!The funny thing about her is that she loves my hoodie.Hahaha!She can't take her eyes off the hoodie for just a second..Hahaha!What can i say..I picked it out myself.So I quickly wore my new The Used band t-shirt.I just can't resist..I love them!Hahaha!

Afterward we walked to the Esplande.We talked about life.Let me break it down for you.

LIFE
.breakups
.current situation
.family problems
.personal problems

Yeap..That's life..Life's a bitch..Hahaha!There's nothing we can do to change it.Actually have..But hard la..Hahaha!Or I just plain lazy.Hehehe..
Afterwards we went to Marina Square.That was the place where we became confused.Me,an emo kid singing the song low,and Azah followed through.LOL!Afterwards I continued with another song,Hot and Cold by Katy Perry(she's hot)

Some of the lyrics

You're hot than you're cold
You're yes than you're no
You're in than you're out You're up than you're down
You're wrong when its right
Its black than its white
We fight we break up
We kiss we makeup

Hahaha!The song's hot!I like it alot(;
We went to Topman/Topshop.Bad idea.I tend to go crazy over the clothes there.Sorry Azah :p
I'm a metro-sexual guy.Deal with it(: After all that,we went to meet my Aunty and her daughter(Alisha).She soo cute.Hahaha!Actually,I went to meet Azah with y sister at Commonwealth.So i passed on my sister to my Aunty.She's all yours.Hahaha!So we met up with my Aunty again but at Fareast Plaza this time.We went up and ate at one of the indonesian fast-food places.It was delicious.Hahaha!After we ate,my sister said that she wanted to treat me to anything I wanted.I told her I wanted a pair of geek specs.So we looked high and low for the shop,till my sister got bored and lazy.So she went home.Busted lil sister): But thank god my uncle gave me money.Ooops!I forgot to mention that he was there when me and Azah met up with my aunty.Hehehe!So instead of going home,we stayed and looked for the shop.We went up and than we went down,left abd than right,front and than backward.Woah..Sounds wrog...Hahahaha!We eventually found the damn shop and it was all thanks to my superior memory.Hwahwahwahwa!Afterward,we went home,feeling satisfied that our 'fieldtrip was a success'.Hahaha!We took the train home.It was a looooong ride.Torture man..Had to stand up all the way till Woodlands because we were soo lucky that there were two seats for us.LOL!She could'nt stop holding onto my hoodie,and no..I was'nt wearing it.She's crazy about my hoodie.LOL!Time passed and soon I had to alight at Yew Tee..Really wished I could spend more time with her.Nevermind baybeh..After I come back from Australia.Ooops..I forget to mention that too..Yess..I am going to Australia.I'll be away for two weeks.So let me just say this,to all my sayang-sayang out there,miss me..If you don't wanna layan me after I come back,fuck off..I don't give a damn,maybe a lil but I'll get over it.I always do.And to my ex blood brother,I guese this is good news because you don't have to hear any new about me for two weeks.Is'nt that great?Hahaha!Gd for you! -.-"

That's all folks.I hope you enjoyed reading this post that i slaved on the keyboard for you readers.Hahaha!Here's a pic of Azah and me outside Esplanade(confession area)

The Used Band T-shirt

There she is(:

Wow..What a day

2008-11-16T01:08:00.003+08:00
Hello my fellow bloggers!I'm back and guese what?I have a new entry for you guys to read!LOL!Enjoy(:

Today was soo much fun.14th November 2008 was the day that my good friend,Nurul,turned 16!Yeah man!Congrats babe!So we celebrated the next day since she celebrated with her family on her birth date.So went out around 12.45.I was in a hurry btw.But I still mannaged to get my hair done.Haha!Yeah...As you all may knw..Hair is my top priority.LOL!So yeah..Got my hair done.So I was overjoyed just because of that.Hahaha!So I went to meet Nurul and the rest at Choa Chu Kang Interchange.I was'nt sure who the rest were but i intend to find out.In the end..I found out that I was the only guy there.The girls included Nana,Amirah,Elly,Sheree,Nuri(NURIAMAK) and the one and only...*DRUMROLL* NURUL!Hahaha!So I was a pimp for a day.Like real only la Bayo...Hahaha.First we went to Marina Square.We ate at Swensens.Mmm..Yummy(:
Afterwards,we went to the steps outside Marina Square and we CAMWHORE!Hahaha!Yeah..But blame it on Nana!She's the one with the camera!Hahaha!Like seriously..She could'nt stop taking pictures with her camera throughout the whole trip.Did I forget to mention that earlier?Ooops :p
But yeah..She did..We did'nt mind at all.Because we just love to camwhore.Hahaha!So afterward we went to the esplanade.We sat near the sea.Yeap..I'm serious.Actually..We were next to the sea.Lol.So we sat at the benches and the steps.I can't believe I'm saying this..But ILY Sheree..Because you On my favourite song by Pink!SO WHAT!LOL!Me and Nurul were dancing and doing stupid acts!Hahaha!Like a free show for all!Hahaha!But we enjoyed ourselfs..That was the main thing.So..Umm..SO WHAT?!I'M STILL A ROCKSTAR! XD
It was fun..So afterwards guese what we did..Yes..If you guesed that we camwhore.You're veryveryvery smart!LOL!We did!Till Nana's boyfriend Syak came.The last time I saw him was on Cultural Night.Yeah..What a great guy.Hahaha!The camwhore sessions continued and eventually the camera's battery went low...Aww..I was just about to strut my stuff):
LOL!Well..We can't all be winners.Sigh..So we improvised.We chatted till another guy showed up.Guese who?My bro,Din!AHHHH!Been a long time since I saw him):
LOL!Well..Afterwards Nana and Syak had to go off and eventually,so did me,Amirah and Elly.We went off leaving Nurul and Din alone.
Aww..So sweet...
In the end I had to go meet my family at Siam's Kitchen at Jurong West.Waaaah!Very the tired siaaaaalss...Afterwards I went to my granny's house,which is where I am now.So yeah.That's about.Hope you enjoyed reading.I wanna play DOTA now.Byeee(:

I'm feeling abit gay

2008-11-14T23:36:00.005+08:00
Hey there!Thanks to Faree..I'm thinking that I could be gay..Sigh..Yeeaap..You heard it..But hey you know what..I'll just be the other meaning of gay(HAPPY).

LOL.I feel soo gay right now and Faree..I hope this pic cheers you up(;

Burried Myself Alive

2008-11-14T22:23:00.003+08:00
Alright..I'm back and I'm just here to put in the lyrics of one of my all time favourite songs.Its by The Used.The tittle of the song is Burried Myself Alive.Its my favourite song because this is just one of the songs that I can relate my life to.So here it is.

You almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time
I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask nicer than that
I think the chairs broke away
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
but it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home
With my foot on your neck
I finally have you right where I want you

I'm used to it

2008-11-14T01:41:00.004+08:00
The things I hate most are listed down here

1.I hate fucking liars

2.I hate people trying to piss me off

3.I hate people saying one thing but meaning another

4.I hate people who can't just tell me straight up to the face and tell me how the feel about me

5.I hate people making me feel like I'm the one who did wrong when they're in the wrong to begin with

6.I hate those busted types

7.I hate those 'oops!so what?you're going to do sumtin about it?'(what a fucked up thing to say)

8.I hate getting my heart broken

9.I hate it when a girl that I'm really interested in being in a relationship with is giving me false hope

10.I hate it when a girl tells me she loves me but actually she does'nt

11.I hate those kinda girls that seriously go for looks.Like seriously go for looks(there's a limit)I mean..What for if the guy's good-looking when his attitude sucks to the core.Idiots -.-

12.I hate people taking advantage of me

13.I hate pretenders

14.I hate people looking down on me

15.I hate people not appreciating all the good stuff I did for them

16.But what I really hate is when somebody's being a bitch all the time.A prissy bitch if i might add.Like..Umm..WTF are you trying to prove?You cn get any guy/girl you want than just throw them one side till a better more good-looking guy/girl comes along?Well..Listen up..There's a saying of what goes around comes around..So umm..I suggest you watch your back alright?Because who knows..One day you might really fall for that guy/girl,but that guy/girl turns out to be like you.LOL.Well..Serves you right than.

Sigh..I'm soo glad I got all that out..Sape2 terase gasak korang la.If you think I'm referring to you.Than be a good boy/girl and ask 1st.Sheesh..Bitches nowdays..They come in both sexes!WOW!O.o

2008-11-14T00:21:00.006+08:00
Hey there guys.I'm don't know why..But i have a random feeling to write a poem.I hope that its good.So here goes.

I don't know why I'm feeling this way
Life just seems to be incomplete without you
I know I sound crazy
But what else can I do?
I think I'm still in love with you
I think I'm missing you
Goddammit what should I do?
Should I move on?
Or should I stick with these feelings I had for you
I'm soo confused
I'm soo confused
WTF should I do?
How could I just let it go after all we've been through
On a second thought,I'm glad that we're through
After all you put me through
After all I've put up with you,this is what you do?
I think your decision was best not only for me but for us
I somehow feel that I've lost your trust
Why of all the times I'm feeling like this
Why here?
Why now?
I just can't take this anymore
I need a way to drown my sorrow
Let's just hope I even make it till tomorrow

Ouch

2008-11-12T22:12:00.003+08:00
Wow..What a week...Fought with 2 of my blood brothers.One of them told me yesterday that he wanted to meet me and give me a good beating.I said you can do what you want to me.I won't fight back.He was surprised and said I'll see you tomorrow.So this afternoon I went to meet up with him.He was with his girlfriend(my ex).He was surprised that I even dared to show up.I told him to take your time,make full use of the time I'm giving you.My ex kept begging him not to give me a beating.He was mad and asked her if she still had feelings for me.I was touched by her action.She still kept begging him not to give me a good beating.I smiled.The next thing I knew,he gave me a hook to my ribs,and I think the rib that I almost broke for Faree is busted now.I won't know for sure.It just hurts like hell now.The next punch went to my temple.It totally knocked me out.I was out cold for almost half an hour.I remembered asking Faree for help.Than I tried to get back to my feet.Man..I had to gather every last inch of strength i had in me.When I finally got back to my feet,I remembered my mama..I love her soo much.I just told myself I had to go home to see her face..It took me quite a while to reach my house as I could barely walk.I felt soo bad..Don't worry Amir..I'm not blogging about you.I won't make stuff up just because we fought.I'm soo sorry bro..Could you ever forgive me?I wish we never had that fight..I hope you forgive me bro..IMY alot dude..
Sigh..Ok..I think I'm done..I'll stop here for now.Till next time.Take care guys.

Zombie-ish Day

2008-11-09T01:59:00.005+08:00
Wow..Ytd was a rush.Firstly,I did'nt sleep at all last night,Secondly,I failed someone last night,thirdly,I had a craving for durian(I know I should'nt but it's addictive XD),and lastly,I'm feeling like a zombie..Oooooh..Hahaha!But yeah...Its was quite an adventure today.I met up with Azah because she was soo kind to buy me lip rings and a lip stud.Aww..Thanks Azah(:
Not forgetting my guy friend's parents were in Malaysia.Hahaha.You know what that means..PARTY TIME!WOOOOHOOO!Yeah..It was fun..He also wanted to pierce his lips.So i pierced for him but he was being soo picky/He said he wanted to pierce on the right first because if he were to pierce on the left,he would look like a Matrep..Dood..Everybody knows you pierce your left side first..Bitch..He was irratating me..Grr..Irratating noob..So when it was time to pierce his lips,I did'nt hessitate.I was brutal on his lip.He had no chance to react.Hahaha.Idiot...But he's still my blood brother.Sorry bro.You were irratating me(:
After that dramatic scene,I went home and boy oh boy..I was restless.I did'nt want to sleep at all.Wierd huh?But I did'nt know what was going on with me.Probblly something happened last nught,but I just can't guese what.Nevermind..I'll figure it out soon.I hope I get to sleep tonight..Ouhh...I'm feeling zombie-ish..Hahha!Well...One last thing...I wanna say thank you Azah for being there for me through thick and thin this year and I appreciate all your help(:
We go on our get-lost-at-town fieldtrip after your Os baybeh?Hahaha!And on that note..I end my post here.I wanna continue playing DOTA.Hahaha!And to all the bitches out there..Its not a nerd game..
Cya guys!GOD BLESS OBAMA!WOOOOHOOO!

Thanks Azah For The Lip Ring

DOTA/Family/My Future

2008-11-07T02:09:00.004+08:00
Oh wow!Just finnished playing DOTA with my cousin.I'm soo irratated.I picked the wrong character and kept dieing.BOOOHOOO!BULLY ME ONLY):
Hahaha!Well..It is only a game.Hahaha!I have more important things to wry about than that.I recently made a promise to myself.I will try to be more focus in my studies,I won't do any hanky pankying with both sexes.Just to point out that I'm straight.Some people insist I be gay -.-"
I just want to make my family proud.Firstly my mum,she gave me life,she clothed me,fed me,nourished me from the day I was born.I will forever love you mama and I will forever be your Bambino(Spanish for baby boy) Secondly my dad,he is setting a good example and its best I realised that I follow it,I will try to change for the better dada,and lastly my sister,I want to set a good example to her.Me being the elder brother,it is my job to help my parents direct her to the right path.I do not wish for her to be like me.I was bad brother,I intend to correct that and change for my family.No more distractions.No more girls.Well...Only those girls who understand me,want to change me for the better,want me to succeed,not self-centred,not flirty,faithfull,not bitchy(there's a limit to how bitchy a girl can be),motivate me to study and turns me on.Hahaha.Yeah..That's my dream girl.I will be the happiest teenager in the world if I ever get a gerl like that.I bet that's what every guy would say when he starts imagining his dream girl.Hahaha!Well,one things for sure,its deffinitely not you,or you,or you or you or you.Hahaha!(Sape2 terase mintak maaf ye)Well....That's about it.Phew!I'm relieved to get that of my chest.I feel much better now..Ahh...Much better..Good night my fellow bloggers and readers!I'm gonna sleep now and think of my dream girl.Too bad the durian effect wore off.Hahaha!Tc now.

Oh So True

2008-11-07T01:28:00.003+08:00
Phew..Just got off the phone with Hudah and afterwards Faree.Missed talking to Hudah.Its been awhile.Hahaha.But for Faree...I still enjoy talking to her.Hehehe.Well I did'nt give her my full attention and for that I appologies.I was playing DOTA with my cousin.Its really addictive.Been killing my cousin seens just now and vice versa.Hahaha!Its a fun game.Faree was getting annoyed.I could tell from the tone of her voice.Oh no..I'm in deep shit.So I gave her my full attention for awhile.She asked me to read something on her blog.So I read it and boy oh boy I was shocked.Her classmate wrote this on their class blog.So here goes.

Once, there was guy, who was in love with a gal.She wasn't most Beautiful But for him, she was everything.He used to dream about her, about spending the rest of life with her.His friends told himWhy do you dream so much about her, when you don't even know if she loves you or not?First tell her your feelings, and get to know if she likes you or not'.He felt that was the right way.The gal knew from the beginning, that this guy loves her.One day when he proposed, she rejected him.His friends thought he would take wrong decision and ruin his life.To their surprise, he was not depressed.When they asked him how is that he is not sad. He replied why should I feel bad?I lost one who never loved me & she lost the one who loved and cared for her.'

Hahaha.Its kinda true.I don't know about the last part though.Tell me different then but now the story is abit altered.I'll just laugh about it.

My Long Lost Besfriend

2008-11-06T23:19:00.002+08:00
My long lost besfriend(Huda) called me.At last!After many weeks of lost contact she finnally called me!Hahaha!I hope she does'nt know that I'm currently in the mood and I'm high right now.Hehehe...But don't worry..I'm a master at disguising my voice.Hwahahaha!K gtg!She's waiting for me on the phone.Would'nt want to keep her waiting.I'll be back(;